life, FLORENCEified

2009-06-29T10:31:00.001-07:00

hey all.
i dont think anyone would read this blog anymore,
but i have a new blog, http://fillmyrumblingtummy.blogspot.com/

so yepp.
whatever i bake will go thereeeee!
VISIT KAY.

2009-06-26T07:24:00.000-07:00

im tired
im feeling shitty
im dreading tomorrow.
sigh.

2009-06-09T22:36:00.000-07:00

oh gosh.
i was just studying and all.
and i suddenly remembered my dream.
i dreamt that i fell in love with some guy.
and that guy was my dream guy.
half way through the night, i woke up,
and i cried.
omg.

this is like the second time i've dreamt of finding my "soulmate",
only to wake up and start crying.
weirddddddddddd

the first time, i dreamt i fell in love with a nice vampire.
no, not the edward kind, but the kind that turns into bats, the "traditional" kind.
and i broke up with him cause eveyone told me he was dangerous and evil.
and in the end, i was so heartbroken, i apologised to him and we got back together.
:/
then i woke up...

the feeling was SO real.
when i woke up, i could feel the ache in my chest.
it was almost tangible, palpable.
oh gosh,
something's seirously wrong with me
):

2009-05-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

hey,
havent been here in a while.
doesnt mean i havent been using the computer though!):
haha. anyway, sec four isnt much of an interesting year.
:)
i kinda realized something today.
i like the beach.
BYE

2009-04-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

Open your eyes - sum41

Lately,
I'm not quite myself.
Maybe,
I do need some help.
Just my confusion,
Trust my delusion.

Don't you,
Regret you met me.
Go through,
These steps to get me,
Back to where we start,
'Fore I fall apart.

If I could black out,
It'd become so clear,
Standing face-to-face with everything I fear.
Watch so closely,
but still I don't see.
As bad as it seems,
a piece of mind I steal,
In ordinary life,
the consequence is real.
I'm past the point of reality.

[Chorus:]
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
But it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.

It's like a bad dream,
that's becoming all too true,
Leaving me with nothing else left to do.
Now so helpless,
I'm not so selfish.
Tell me,
How does it feel to have a face like that,
How does it feel to be replaced like that.
Now so faceless,
Do you still feel?

[Chorus]

It's hard to believe right now,
This seems to be real.
Still phasing by this time,
So why can't I wake up.

Over my head, better off dead - Sum41

What happened to you
You've played the victim for so long now in this game
What i thought was true
It's made of fiction and i'm following the same

But if I try
To make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm falling, I'm falling

Now I'm in over my head, with something i said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead.
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to me.

It's none of my concern
Why look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard I've met our makers
They don't even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm falling
I'm falling

Now I'm in over my head, with something i said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to

This came long before those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare
What's with my disgrace I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

Now I'm in over my head, with something I said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to me

Over my head, better off dead
Over my head, better off dead

the first time, ill try my best
the second time, im fighting a losing battle
the third time round...
you know what?
i dont really give a shit anymore.
do what you want. i' m really tired of this.

2009-03-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

" what happened to you florence? you much more hardworking during your tournament season"

sigh.
i really wonder, is he right, and am i just deluding myself?
well, i DID finish all my work, i just didnt bring it.
(stupidly, i forgot 2 days in a row)
arghhhhhhh.
sometimes, i feel like im hiding under a truckload of work.
yeah, i know. its mostly because i have been procrastinating.
okay, actually, its just chinese that's the main issue
two comprehensions, two compositions and one summary.
shit baby, shit.

anyway, gonna finish up my english, and keep my fingers crossed that i have enough motivation to finish all of it by this weekend!
i WILL be a good girl!:D
loves, bye!

2009-03-18T02:24:00.000-07:00

hey, here's jieshi's supposed birthday cake which i didnt give her.
heh.
and baugettes
i know the pictures arent fabulous, but im getting there..:D

butter, nutella&butter

orange sponge cake with meringue frosting

heyo jiesheeeeeee!

2009-03-16T05:31:00.000-07:00

2009-03-11T19:47:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE LOVE SON OF DORK!
especially David Williams &Steve Rushton:D

2009-03-10T23:55:00.000-07:00

Call you up in the middle of the night,
Like a firefly without a light,
You were there like a slow torch burning,
Was a key that could use a little turning.

So tired that I couldn't eat or sleep,
So many secrets I couldn't keep,
Promise myself I wouldn't breathe,
One more promise I couldn't keep.

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out,
This time I have really,
Lead myself astray.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like we should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Can you help me remember how to smile,
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile,
How on earth did I get so jaded,
Life's mystery seems so faded.

I can go where no one else can go,
I know what no one else knows,
Here I am just drowning in the rain,
With a ticket for a runaway train.

And everything is cold and dry,
Day and night earth and sky,
Somehow I just,
Don't believe it.
(yeah, yeah)

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

[INSTRUMENTAL]

Bought a ticket for a runaway train,
I came back there laughing at the rain,
A little out of touch a little insane,
Just easier than dealing with the pain.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway train's heading up the track,
Runaway train burning in my veins,
Runaway but it all seems the same.

(Runaway, runaway)

Elearning is so NOT a slack period.

2009-03-10T07:57:00.001-07:00

saw this on someone's blog.
made a lot of sense:/

Do whatever you want, you call the shots in your life.
You don't care how it'd affect anyone else anyway.
But it turns ard and gets you back somehow at the end of the day.

the typicality of life.

2009-03-06T06:40:00.000-08:00

baked.
honey chocolate chip oatmeal cookies.
they're actually quite nice(:
unexpectedly so!
the pictures are kinda grainy):
looking forward to training tomorrow!(:

Save You - Simple Plan
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
It's drowning in the whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
You know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

oh, i really wish i could just save you.

2009-03-04T06:41:00.000-08:00

weirdly, the topic of #came up.
i dont know why,
but i just didnt want to talk about that part.
if feels so, private to me,
especially when im talking her.
i know it's weird, but i dont really understand why either.
althought i dont feel like i used to about this anymore,
some part of me's still living in my memories.
a little part that cant seem to let go.
anyway, it's almost end of term 1.
i need to buck up, and mug.
everything else can wait.

when exactly, are you fully over something?

2009-03-02T06:41:00.000-08:00

talking to __ is very awkward for me, as __ reminds me of somebody.
whenever i speak to __ it feels like i am speaking to #.
since __ is a very very different person from #,
thus i know, if i overstep the line by accident, i will get into absolutely big trouble.
i think only 2 people would understand what i am trying to say.
bye

2009-02-28T00:32:00.000-08:00

im broke. ( ): )
someone donate money to me ( ): )
parent teacher's meet was so-so (:/)
mum's happier with this year's comments as compared to past years (:D)
training today was funny (:o)
me bringing food+hassan+darryl+gaston+justin+nick= HAHAAHAHAAHAHA WTH DAMN FUNNY! ( :DDDDDDDD)
i am a (court) NO. 1 winner (:D:D:D:D:D:D)
N insulted me. hopefully it wasnt intentional. ( >:( + :( )
YH&friend, were fighting over who NOT to eat my muffin ( :/ )
darryl gave me 1/4 of a stick of kinderbueno ( :D)
gaston says being a girl is good (???)
hassan scared me, twice in two weeks (-.-)
N&YH laughed at me being scared ("-.-")
gaston is damn pervvvvvvvvvv. ( :O )
subway is love (<3)
and im hungry ( ): )
my post is very emotional&cool (HAHAHAAHA :D)
bye ( <3 )

2009-02-27T05:58:00.000-08:00

hey,
things happen, but im not interested in telling them anymore.
heh.
anyway, just want to say:
i hope you're not lying to me.
i'd rather give you the benefit of doubt.
and ultimately, this is your life, not mine.
so i dont really have any say in it.
but i hope, you will consider the consequences of your actions before you do them, okay?
love you(:

peanut butter, chocolate chunk.

will post more, when i bake more.
sorry they dont look that appetizing :/
i really need to work on my food photography.
heh:D

2009-02-25T03:32:00.000-08:00

florence feels like a fatso&smelly-so.
heh.
two down, screwed one, two more to go.
8 more days till i can bake.
3 people i realize i really love.
249 days( approx) till o's are over.
225 days till im 16
5678 i have lived for.
490,579,200 seconds
bye

2009-02-23T02:01:00.000-08:00

love is my new camera.
love is everything that's not.
love is oldie love songs:D

i really really hate being like this.
like, you dont understand HOW much i hate this.
i hate this feeling, i hate doing this.
i hate being stupid.
oh just forget it already for goodness sake.
im so pissed with myself.
i dont even know why im like that.
i guess i really am just stupid then.

Reunited lyrics by Peaches & herb

I was a fool to ever leave your side
Me minus you is such a lonely ride
That breakup we had
Has made me lonesome and sad
I realize I love you
'Cause I want you back
Hey, hey

I spent the evening with the radio
Regret the moment that I let you go
Our quarrel was such
A way of learning so much
I know now that I love you
'Cause I need your touch
Hey, hey

(Chorus:)
Reunited, and it feels so good
Reunited, 'cause we understood
There's one perfect fit
And, sugar, this one is it
We both are so excited
'Cause we're reunited
Hey, hey

I sat here, staring at the same old wall
Came back to life just when I got your call
I wished I could climb
Right through the telephone line
And give you what you want
So you would still be mine
Hey, hey

I can't go cheatin', honey; I can't play
I found it very hard to stay away
As we reminisce
On precious moments like this
I'm glad we're back together
'Cause I missed your kiss
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

Lover, lover, this is sudden love
And you're exactly what I'm dreamin' of
All through the day
And all through the night
I'll give you all the love I have
With all my might
Hey, hey

(Repeat chorus)

2009-02-21T21:11:00.000-08:00

gosh, i hate it when people underestimate me.
i know how to deal with pain, with life.
I HATE IT WHEN YOU SEE ME AS A KID.
HATE IT.
so stop it before i really get pissed.

hahaha, btw, i didnt bake those.
i said i WILL. not have ): ): hahaha.
maybe i will after these two weeks:D

2009-02-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

oh, i feel like killing an asshole.
i really do.

I GOT MY CAMERA!
i WILL post pretty tree pictures soon.
hahah i have a nature mode,
which "accentuates the blossing leaves"
HAHAHAHAAHA. i was happy when i saw that.
IM SORRY LYN! i will share my pictures with you, okay?
look at these. lovely eh?

i will bake soon. and ill have wonderful things for you to eat :D

2009-02-20T21:29:00.000-08:00

i want my camera
i want to take pretty pictures of trees
i want to bake
i want to take wonderful pictures of food
i want to create my own original recipe
i want to create my own dessert.
i want to make new friends
i want to play more tennis
i want to be fitter
i want to be thinner
i want to be taller
i want to forget things that i should have forgotten long ago
i want to love more
i want to be a better person
i want to have a more intersting blog, so i wont bore people to death
i want my friends to be happy
i want to protect the ones i love

in short, i want to be someone im not.

tag replies:
kelly: hahaha, well, stressful? hahaha, ehhhh i want your ms tan bio notes! how's your school?
brina: i want tennis! hahah:D
isaac: haha, sick what? haha. my ponytail's cute now. however, i look like an ahlian>:(
etcha: hahaha. aiyah, you secretly crush on me lah. i know HAHAHA! JOKE!
joel: hahaha, good that you know... :/
sarah: hahaha, yeppppppp. and the last time i cut was REALLY last year okay! eh i cant visit your blog):

my life would suck without you - kelly clarkson

Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
What you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go
Oh yeah
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

haha, truthfully,
i would NEVER tell that to a guy.
but the day i do, you know he's my soulmate.
bye!

2009-02-18T00:03:00.000-08:00

cut my hair,
i asked for it to be "thinned" slightly.
(in chinese)
i think, either my chinese was so horrible that the china-man hairdresser couldnt understand,
or he preferred ah lians,
but oh my,
I FEEL BALD NOW
HE CUT LIKE SO MUCH AH!
THERE WAS SO MUCH HAIR ON THE FLOOR!
hahahah. but my ponytail's very cute now.
like, some anorexic ponytail.
HAHA, but it literally bounces as i walk.
(:

runaway train - busted.

Call you up in the middle of the night,
Like a firefly without a light,
You were there like a slow torch burning,
Was a key that could use a little turning.

So tired that I couldn't eat or sleep,
So many secrets I couldn't keep,
Promise myself I wouldn't breathe,
One more promise I couldn't keep.

It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep there's no way out,
This time I have really,
Lead myself astray.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like we should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Can you help me remember how to smile,
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile,
How on earth did I get so jaded,
Life's mystery seems so faded.

I can go where no one else can go,
I know what no one else knows,
Here I am just drowning in the rain,
With a ticket for a runaway train.

And everything is cold and dry,
Day and night earth and sky,
Somehow I just,
Don't believe it.
(yeah, yeah)

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Bought a ticket for a runaway train,
I came back there laughing at the rain,
A little out of touch a little insane,
Just easier than dealing with the pain.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway on a one way track,
Seems like I should be getting somewhere,
Somehow I'm neither here nor there.

Runaway train never going back,
Runaway train's heading up the track,
Runaway train burning in my veins,
Runaway but it all seems the same.

2009-02-17T00:55:00.000-08:00

oh gosh, mon&tue were tiring days.
wish i could fly,
wish i were superwoman.
im tired, im stressed.
and i feel like a bitch for complaining.
sorry all):
and gosh, my tiredness is so obvious in my pictures.
i wanted to post them, but blogger thinks my face shouldnt be shown.
not my fault then.
hahah.
im quite irritated by someone.
okay, with some people. and no you, wouldnt know who,
they arent cedarians.
gosh, sometimes, when you want something, you cant get it at all.
but when you DONT want ANYTHING, suddenly EVERYTHING comes to you.
damnnnnnnn. gonna go, bye!

without you - air supply ( BEST SONG!)
No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
Can't live if living is without you
Can't give, I can't give anymore

No, I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

oh you left,
so quickly,
that you didnt even wait,
to hear the sound of my heart break.
from so much, now im on empty.
its going to be hard to trust, hard to believe.
it had nothing to do with me,
i know.
but dont you know, that you're living a lie?

2009-02-16T01:38:00.001-08:00

i just realized why i think my valentine's day cupcakes failed.
i forgot to add baking soda for the second batch.
stuuuuuuupid
shitttt, etcha, your fault lah, distracting!
HAHAHAHA, joke.
bye!

2009-02-15T00:32:00.000-08:00

love is finding someone who thinks the same way as you.
love is falling down on ice.
love is not raising your voice at someone and making her cry (f- you)
love is sometimes, sooooo not for guys.

hey, happy belated valentine's everyone.
dont want to stay too long and betray my parent's trust.
anyway, i want to say, im over my emo period
i think i was probably just worrying too much:D
anyway, i think my cupcakes suckeddd.
so sorry everyone): ): ):
anyway gonna go now.

funny convos.

"do you know who's XX(someone's name) from your school?"
"yes, he's the biggest loser in __ (school's name)"
"oh and do you know YY(XX's friend)?"
"yeah, the second biggest loser in __"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

"if Z wasnt in the picture, i'd probably be like, okay, that's florence. let me, stay away from her.."
:D
thanks for everything(:

"haha, eh that guy in the orange shirt is hot too!"
"oh my god, no. at least the one in the black shirt was KINDA hot"

"hahah, you're so funny, you fall forward then backwards"

"i only reminded you, why did you raise your voice at me?"
bastard.

just give me a while, to find what i lost.

2009-02-12T05:55:00.000-08:00

okay, i edited that post, cause it was really mean,
and actually, im not that concerned about it,
so i probably shouldnt be so bitchy.
HEH. no point burning bridges, esp when burning them might be unbeneficial to me.
(rah understands my point)
anyway. i just want to state how i dont like it when people come and tell me that i shouldnt be upset over things, im not even upset over!
its like, dude, shut up already..
hahaha. anyway,
bye!

2009-02-12T00:42:00.000-08:00

love is trees, leaves and flowers.
love is NOT omg-im-freaking-tired&not-feeling-well.
love is happy moments you wont forget.

omg, i suddenly have this freaking weird obsession about trees&how pretty they look.
it started because of lynn.
haha, we were discussing how we wanted to buy a camera,
and she said she didnt really want it for camwhoring.
she wanted to take pictures of like, non-human stuff.
and i told her, how i like taking pictures of treess!
ESPECIALLY THE LEAVES!
have you ever noticed how pretty trees are?
like, how the leaves have a thousand different shades,
and many many different colours.

PRETTY RIGHT!
leaves are cool, i mean they can change colour!
like, bright green, to deep green to yellow, then redish-brown and then brown.
its a feat even humans cant perform:D
heh, call me gay, but i think that trees are REALLY pretty.
:D dorothy doesnt really agree with my point):
but i think sher does though:D
HEH.
anyway, i want to tell __
i kinda understand how you feel.
i said the other day that i haven't had someone whom i treasured so much,
and took the friendship so seriously, that when it ended, i cried.
but then i remembered i did go through that before.
and all i have to say is that, thank god i broke it off,
cause if we were still friends now,
i wouldnt be who i am today.
anyway, i think, from like today onwards,
i shall super concentrate on my studies.
tournament's over, so i dont have an excuse to blog anymore.
excuse to myself that is.
so yeahhhhh, hopefully you dont see my next post,
cause that would mean im studying :/
anyway, i bought stuff today.
so now im broke, fat and not feeling very well.
michelle said: "you look sad, pissed and tired"
yes im sad&pissed that im so freaking behind in my studies,
and im goddamn tired.
hope ill enjoy valentine's day and NOT become tired and shitty when we go out together...><
EDITED

haha, anyway, gotta go
bye all!:D

to isaac:
haha, yeah we'll play soon, and btw, I SO owned YOU, its was SOO never the other way round! hahahaha, and oie shut up luh, fat is the new sexy!:D

2009-02-11T05:15:00.000-08:00

love is 9-0 up.
love is OMG-THAT-SUPER-HOTTTT-GUY-ON-THE-BUSSS! (HAHAHAHA)
love is like magic, it can sometimes be an illusion..
love is funny moments on the bus.
love is cheering you up.
love is HAVING THE BESTEST COACH& TEACHER IN CHARGE EVERRRRRRR!

hoho, hey you.
goshhh, im sooo tired now, so im not sure what im feeling.
happy/sad/ whatever.
hahah, i shall type the funny things i rmbb!

(on mon)
me: coachhhhhhh, can you come for wednessday?? dont care about NY lahhh, they not as important as us! :D
coach: i see how lah.
(today)
me: so coach, you leaving at 2.3o, huh? ):
coach: no lah, im staying
me: OMGGGGGGGG COACH ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY! hahaha, so what excuse did you give the NY people?
coach: haha, i just said cedar "si dou bu yao fang kai" (die also dont want to let me leave)
me: HAHAHAHAHAH YAY YOU'RE THE BEST COACH!
coach: haha, see lah, later the ny people get angry with you then you know.

HAHAHAHAHAHA, COACH IS LOOOOVE
yeah, played sm today.
ah, my match was kinda not interesting much.
no other comments.
yeah, won, then went to play tennis/squash with CRYS!
FREAKING FUNNNNNNNNY!
she's damn damn damn cute lah!
yeahhh, then the next part was just some damn emo part.
i dont really want to talk about it.
but you know, the feeling of being quitted upon,
really, really sucks.
big time.
anyway...
took 48 home with FW, ariel SY& rebecca.
HAAHHAHAHAHHAA I SWEAR, BUS RIDES ON SQUEEZYYY BUSSES ARE THE FUNNIEST!
and so we were being damn stupid together, and i kept hitting this old uncle's head.
whoops.
AND OHHHH, THE GUY IN FRONT OF ME WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY CUTE!
REALLY!
hahahahahaha, and i think he thought that we/i were/was really crazy..
but im just hoping he secretly thought we were cool.
hahah, secretly....

me: omg, did you see that guy? he was SOOOOOO cute!
ariel: yeah, he was quite cute, but he's young.
me: BUT HE's CUTE!
ariel: but he's young, meaning that he either failed jc/poly and is working now. either that or he's a lazy bum, just using his parent's money.
me:....... but he cute.... ):
HAHAHAAHA.
yeahhhhhh. then dinnered with kel&chloe&ariel..

arghh, i no mood to type alr, damn tired and all.
stinkyyyyyyyyy!
hahahah. shall gooo noww.
but i shall state what andy's pm is:
seriously, what a bastard.
omgggg, damn funny. i miss her luhh.
gonna bake with her on fridayyyyy
YAYYY
gonna gooo noww.
got shit alot to do.
bye all!

"basket lah, he kena choke thats why they couldnt make it in."

2009-02-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

love is going for study dates but failing and going off topic a lot.
love is subway
love is what makes MY world go round.

hey you, fast post cause i know daddy's gonna come after my head with a chopping knife soon.
HAHA. yeahhhhhh.
anyway, school was quite okay luhhh,
haha, it was still the same, hiding from foo in the morning, being a graveyard class ect...
PE was REALLY physically tiring, i dont know why (no sacrasm here)
and had our group counselling session.
although we didnt really discuss much, i felt more relieved after it.
like i knew, if i were to ever want to commit suicide at 12 midnight, there would be someone there for me (:
however, i have some extremely bad impressions of some people now though.
haha, looks are deceiving, in MANY WAYS.
hahaha, etcha would soooo agree ;)
anddd we had double maths. ET was in a good mood, so not TOO bad.
met etcha for lunch&"study" cause she had no csp.
(YAY!:D )
went to subway, talked&ate.
then went to my house for dinner.
we talked about like, super many things, but MAINLY about two issues (HAHA, TRUE OKAY, TWO THINGS ONLY!)
and we came to a conclusion that those two issues, are really sucky, and we should just totally throw them away.
HAHA. btw, thanks for helping me see the light.
without you, i would have still been a fool.
hope you'll see your "light" soon :D <3
brina said" Hehe. I'm v busy lahh. Hehe, hols hols(: We'll play tennis. That is if someone doesnt over sleep again lah! HEHEHE"
OH MAN,
I MISS YOU TWO!
i want to meet her & play tennis with you again! ): ): ): ):
its been sooooooo long since i've had the chance to trash you lah! (HAHAHAHAAHA:D)
and i wanna show dulcy how pro i am compared to blackie! TEEHEE
my kitchen is like, waiting for me to bake the brownies
i super promise i'll really really REALLY wont oversleep okay!:D
hahahahaha, for dulcy, anything's cool! HAHAHAHA:P
come with her &support me for my spex match if you're free okay?:D
&bring MR! HAHAHAHAHA. joke!

anyway, i've gotta go alreadyy
still have like, SO MUCH to finish.
hahaha, stupid etchaaaa, scare me with her lousy storiess
BYE ALL!

jerk(S)
>:[

2009-02-09T03:31:00.000-08:00

love is when you dont feel sad anything's over.
love is a wonderful partner, who's freaking hot&sexy.
love is taking meaningless walks just to remember memories.

heyy youu(:
i had a depressing start today.
esp since my weekend+friday was kinda REALLY screwyyyyy.
upset over something that i've realized i couldn't have helped, worrying about something that's probably nothing, having bad sleep& too much howework!
anywayyyy. morning was stupiddd.
i saw mrs foo, and i was FREAKING scared she'd catch me for my skirt,
so i did some dumb things, and joan&amanda thought it was really funny-.-
haha, okay, i admit, it was kinda funny... i feel so fugitive then!
yepp. okay skip skip skip to tournament.
played pl.
em&i were really scared for our match, esp after friday, and the "pushers" match.
we really lost A LOT of confidence. (esp me ): )
won 9-3 though, cause we were both playing "our style" and it rockedd! :D
emooooolaye is sooooooo hottt,
especially when she's on the court (HAHA RHYME!)
and since i was in serangoon, i wanted to visit someone, but that person didnt pick up:/
not fated thennn!
haha, took 317 back.
and on the bus, i saw this quote:
in love, it is always better to be disappointed, then to be constantly wondering.
and i was like whatttttttt?!?!
HAHAAHAHAHA, i really wanted to laugh out loud, but i controlled myself.
then i suddenly thought of somebody.
and i thought A LOT about THAT somebody.
so i decided to go somewhere.
i dont think anybody would understand what im going to say, and i doubt __ would read this.
so although i had a freaking tonnn of homework to do,
i made a detour, and walked from serangoon mrt to...
serangoon macs.
and on the way, i was remembering all the little lovely things
like the stupid&funny things that happened...
many have asked me the question,
so why the heck did you do that?!
haha, my answers are different everytime.
none of them are the whole truth (:
but neither were they lies.
but regardless of it all, i just want to say,
i really did mean every single i-love-you,
and that you were the bestest bestest.
i know what they thought of me,
and just for you to know, im really not that kind of person.
i had my reasons.
haha, so yeah, went to macs, and i kinda walked faster and faster as i approached,
and i was nearly running when i reached.
and i walked to THAT table,
and i almost, ALMOST thought you would be there.
but it was occupied by someone else, creating their own special memories.
(:
hahaha, i've finally had the courage to write that.
funny how life works eh?
i hope you're doing well now(:

and yeah, im back home now, reminiscing, thinking.
hahaha.
and surprisingly, im not upset about some other thing.
hahaha, im kinda in the okkayyyyyy,-so-what-now kinda mode.
and i do feel like asking you that.
haha, but i'd rather just wait and see.
but, whatever happens, im not gonna change into some weird other person,
&since you weren't exactly a huge part of my life up till only recently,
so this wouldnt make much of a difference to me.
yepppp,
anywayyy
love to you alllllllll, esp those who're always there for me,
telling me how pro& hot i am,
lending me their caps&getting water for me.
and no matter what
you all will be a biggggg part of me.
THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES!
btw, kelly FORCED ME TO DO THIS:

Kelly says:
type in your blog : ]
Fl. this time round, im the devil. says:
haha what?
Kelly says:
I LOVE KHOOWANYEEKELLY

now you see what she's really like!

lyrics:

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident, turibulent, succulent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

BYE!

2009-02-07T23:12:00.000-08:00

okay
i saw something, and i finally sat down,
and thought it through.
every single bitty damn thing, every action, every mistake
and i just have to say:
what the fuck.
yeah, more or less.
i dont really know what to say.
life's like that.
you get a minute of happiness and 100000 hours of disappointments.
we had a chance.
im not going to tell you,
how sucky it felt.
it really cut deeeeeep.
i could see it in their eyes.
i know what they thought.
her fault.
i dont know how else to continue, and what else to say,
but i hope you'll read this, and i dont have to tell you how i feel.
so what set off all this fucked up feelings?
should i show you?
haha, if you're observant enough, you'll see it.
if you're not, and you dont understand anything,
well, not my problem.
i love you, a lot.
thanks for everything, thanks for being there,
and being the best, when im not
bye all.

HOW MANY SCHOOLS HAVE YOU WON NOW? Lucky bitch you got the easy draw!

wtf do i say to this?

2009-02-07T06:46:00.000-08:00

excerpt from new moon, by stefanie meyer.

"where you are is the right place for me"
"im no good for you, bella"
"dont be ridiculous," i wanted to sound angry, but it sounded like i was begging. "you're the very best part of my life"
"my world is not for you," he said grimly.

....

"bella, i dont want you to come with me." he spoke the words slowsly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as i absorbed what he was really saying.
there was a pause as i repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.
"you...dont...want me?" i tried the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
"no."
i stared, uncomprehendingly, into his eyes. he stared back without apology. his eyes were like topaz-- hard and clear and very deep. i felt like i could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could i see a contradiction to the word he's just spoken.
"well, that changes things." i was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. it must be because i was so numb. i couldnt realize what he was telling me. it didnt make any sense.
he looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "of course ill always love you... in a way. but what happened the other night made me realize its time for a change. because im... tired of pretending to be something im not, bella. i am not human." he looked back, and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human. " ive let this go on for much too long, and im sorry for that."
"dont." my voice was just a whisper now; awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins. "dont do this."
he started at me, and u could see from his eyes that my words were far too late. he already had.
" you're not good for me, bella" he turned his earlier words around, and so i had no argument. how well i knew that i wasnt good enough for him.
i opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. he waited patiently, his face wiped clean of all emotion. i tried again.
if..thats what you want."
he nodded once.
....
it will be as if i never existed, he promised me.
---------------------
this part never fails to make me cry.
hahaha, goshhhh, ive slept soo much today, but im still so tired.
haha, tuition tomorrow, at 7am.
yeah, wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i know.
im current very worried about something.
lets see if you can guess.
i have 3bruises that appeared out of no where,
im feeling fatigued, weak and tired.
i have headaches sometimes
recently, i found it difficult to swallow.
hahah maybe its something, maybe its nothing (:
bye noww

"so what if nothing comes out of this? will you be sad?"
"nope, ill just be disappointed."
"disappointed? why not sad?"
"because life often turns out this way."

2009-02-06T21:20:00.000-08:00

love is pretty pink helium balloons
love is lunch consisting of youghuru& mr bean pancake
:D

hey you, i super want to blog about today,
cause it was sooo funny.
hahaha. went for traininggg.
i swear, darryl grew taller.
yeah..
anyway, i was just asking darryl,
how do you know if a guy likes you.
and he said:
"well, if he doesnt insult you. for example, he wont tell you, florence i think you eyes are really small."
HAHA, i was like: DARRRRYLLLLLLLLLL! ARE MY EYES REALLY THAT SMALL?!
d: yes.
so i asked justin, nick & gaston whether my eyes were small.
and they said: yesyes, so small i cant even see them.
OMGGGGG.
i turned to coach and asked: coach, they're bullying meee. are my eyes really that small?
coach: eh, dont bully her anymore luh.... but actually, your eyes are really small, you need toothpicks to open them bigger.
WHOALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
and everyone started laughing like no one's business.
HAHAHAHAHA, freaking retarrrrded.
yeah, then darryl went on teasing me, and so i said
EH DARRYL YOU DAMN GAY CAN!
then it changed to:
DARRYL, OMG YOU'RE DAMN IRRITATING!
hahahah, and nick was like,
why your vocabulary so limited one,
only have gay and irritating.
HAHAH, damnit,
i really hate it when tricia's not here.
then its like 5 guys, 2 girls.
and stef's like kinda quiet, so i ALWAYS get bullied.
lunched with nickyy.
he says my pink balloon is so childish, and he almost forced me to stuff it in my bag:(
hahah, i more or less treated him to lunch cause he didnt bring money:/
pfffffffffft. hahahhha and he didnt want to give me a bite of his cookie.
irrrrrrritating.
hahah, i told mum about darryl&my small eyes,
and she laughed like crazy too.
blarghhhhhhh.
hahhhahah, the whole world likes to bully me, lah.
HAHA, gotta go nowwww.
aching all overrrr :O
BYE

2009-02-06T06:59:00.000-08:00

love is when your partner and you, laugh at invent a new tactic for tennis<3
love is when you know when your partner wants to be left alone
love is when you know, whatever happens, she'll still love you. (HAHA, hopefully(: )

hoho, im tired,
im sleepy, im stinky,
but im here to update you on my life.
haha, honored eh?;D
yeah, played ij today,
no comments.
hahahaha ;)
mmmmmmmmhm.
today was a funny day lah, but im lazy to think of all the funny quotes
anyway, just gonna go sleep luh.
i have training tomorrrrrow. hahahaha.
I WANT TO SEE YH! I MISS HIM!
HAHAHAHAAH, N TOOOO!
hahaha, this is gayness personified.
HAHA.
hope tricia comes, and CM too:D
AND OH, this is what mdm audra said of my essay!
dear florence,
received with much thanks. attached is the amended piece.
its a little melodramatic at the o levels but its fine for a piece of imaginative literature. if such a topic came out at the o levels, just stop at the hating and longing part. you have a natural flair for the language, florence, keep it up!
HAHA, how sexy is that?
suuuuuuuper. (:

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

Slow it down
make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
to be something I'm not

I'm a fool
out of love
'cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
caught in the middle
Life is a maze
and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
and I don't know why

I am just a little girl
lost in the moment
I'm so scared
but don't show it
I can't figure it out
it's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
and synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

hahah, thanks to rachel for the song title

so tell me, im waiting, for nothing?

2009-02-05T02:23:00.000-08:00

love is when you force yourself to wake up at 7 am every morning so you could spend time with him/her.
love is giving and taking and sacrifice between two people.
love gets you through the toughest of times.
love is the motivation for staying away till 2 am in the morning on a week night, just so you could spend time with each other.
love is allowing yourself to get teased(brutally), because you know the other person will feel happy.
love is when you remember funny things someone said, no matter how insignificant they were, and smile to yourself throughout the day(:

hahah, im just gonna continue defining love for you all:D
okay, they aren't really super accurate definitions you will find in the oxford dictionary,
but they're mine.
so yeppppp.
anyway, funny things that made me happy& laugh-y! (not really referring to my love definitions btw...)

sarah comments on my commonwealth essay:
the name from BOB suddenly changed to HENRY

let me help you understand that part.
.....

Henry was the most talented swimmer in my school, and he was blessed with extremely good looks. That coupled with the muscular body gotten from swimming, and gentlemanly manners that came from his good upbringing, made Henry the most desirable guy in my school. Every girl was smitten with him, and I was no different. One day, while I was making my way home, I passed by my school’s swimming pool. I saw a solitary figure in the water, swimming to and fro repeatedly. Curious, I paused by the pool and tried to make out who it was. Straining my neck, and concentrating so hard, I totally missed the fact that my wheel chair was slipping, and I was slowly headed towards the pool. Suddenly, my world was a myriad of colors and bubbles. I had fallen into the pool!
.....

HAHAHA, i forgot the name, cause i went back to edit the first part.
so yeahhhhhhh. i kept secretly smiling to myself, because i sent that copy to mdm audra.
shittte.

simin said:
and i was so shocked, i screamed all the way from the first level to the 12th level!
HAHAAHAAHHAHA
she's soooo cute luh.
we were talking about cockroaches, and how disgustingly scary they are:/

and bobo said:
huhhhhh, if not then im going to chop you into pieces.
ahaha, i dont want to say what that part was about, cause kinda sensitive ah.
but it was freaking funny.

issac says:

Fl baby just say yes.	HAHAHAHAHA
Fl baby just say yes.	YOU ARE SUCH AN IDIOT
Fl baby just say yes.	hahaha
Fl baby just say yes.	i more meng meh?
Fl baby just say yes.	is that a compliment?:D
speedover	o_o
speedover	something like that
speedover	don't get your hopes up though
Fl baby just say yes.	hahahhahaah
Fl baby just say yes.	HOHO ISAAC COMPLEEEEEEEEEEEEMENTED ME!

so yepp.
isaac secretly thinks im cool!
SO HAPPPPPPPPPPPY!

All the love in the world - the corrs <3 ( i <3>

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say.

Still I believe I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it - I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away
...

gonna go now, bye all!

sis said: its not worth it, if he isnt going to say anything.

2009-02-04T03:07:00.000-08:00

helllo(:
my mood's currently happy.
kinda different from how my day started out.
:/
been sleeping late last few nights.
soooo, actually, i didnt feel well today.
dizzzzzzy and felt like puking.
hahaha, but i ignored it luh.
match today.
lost 7-9, but im happy,
because we lost 4/2-9 last year.
(:
thanks to darling, for her encouragement.
HAHA.
loved your slice. (dont love you though!)
yeahhh. went back with crys!
hahahaha, she's damn funny ah.
rubbbish like anything.
anyway, dulcy tagged me to do this on facebook..

Tagged by Dulcena Yen

001. Real name → Florence Goh Jia Hui
002. Nickname(s)→ Flo, Ahrence. Cow( COW FART CAUSES GLOBAL WARMING!)
003. Star sign → LIBRA!
004. Male or female → hahahah, can i say i dont know? female i hope? HAHAHAA
005. Elementary → Haig Girls (NOT, hate girls... -.-)
006. Middle School → Cedar Girls'
007. High School → idk yet?
008. Hair color → Black
009. Long or short → ah, meeedium?
010. Loud or Quiet → (VERY) LOUD :D
011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → phone
013. Health freak → hahaha, used to be...
014. Drink or Smoke? → hahah, drank, WILL NEVER SMOKE!
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → hahah, maybe.
016. Eat or Drink → Eat
017. Piercings → Ear
018. Tattoos → there's one on my heart that says: EMILY'S MY WIFE! (HAHA, coach said we're married anyway:D )

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ uh, DUH?
020. Been in a relationship → uh huh.
021. Been in a car accident → sadly, yessss.
022. Been in a fist fight → hahahah, i've slapped ( and been slapped) by caroline. counted?

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → when i was 12..
024. First best friend → i've yet to consider anyone as my true best friend
025. First award → Errrrrr. primary 1 merit bursary something
026. First crush → HAHA, it was in kindergarden. i think john or johnathan something
028. First vacation → umm, not sure. malaysia most probably

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → COACH ALVIN! :D :D
030. Last person you texted → bobo
031. Last person(s) you watched a movie with → etcha&andy
032. Last food you ate → TAIWANESE JELLY SNACK! <3>
033. Last movie you watched → bedtime stories! ( I LOVE BUGSY!)
034. Last song you listened to → If you're not the one - daniel beddingfield
035. Last thing you bought → astons dinner? (technically, mum paid for it)
036. Last person you hugged → hahahaha EMILYYYYYY CHIAAAAA! DARLINGGG!

FAVES:
037. Food → CHOCOLATE& ALOT MORE
038. Drinks → mmmhmm, hot chocolate?
039. Clothing → Dressesss!
040. Books → used to be twilight. until i got sick of edward.
041. Musics → old love songs/ballads?
042. Flower → Red rose:D
043. Colors → PINKK!
044. Movies → hahaha, idk...
045. Positions → hahaha, first lah. what else?
046. Subjects → ANYTHING BUT CHINESE!

IN 2008..... I

047. [ ] Kissed in the snow (i didnt know singapore had snow.. )
048. [ ] celebrated Halloween
049. [x] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [x] someone questioned your sexual orientation ( HAHA YES, someone asked if i was les!)
052. [ ] came out of the closet( i dont think i spend my time hiding in my closet?)
053. [ ] gotten pregnant(righttttt.....)
054. [ ] had an abortion(RIGHTTTTTTT....)
055. [x] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [x] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [x] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing
064. [x] ran a mile
065. [x]went to the beach with your best friend(s)
066. [ ] stay single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → Nothing
068. Drinking → Nothing
069. I'm about to → bathe and do work?
070. Listening to → ahahaha, nothing. but love story by taylor swift's playing in my head..
071. Plans for today → finishhhhhhhhhh all my homeworrrkkkk):
072. Waiting for → someone to reply me

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → DEFINITELY
074. Want to get married? → HAHA, i wouldnt have kids if i didnt get married..
075. Careers in mind → I've always secretly hoped i could be a cook..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes → hahahah, for now, its eyes....
077. Shorter or taller? → Taller (a guy shorter than me? shorter than 156?!_
078. Romantic or spontaneous → SPONTANEOUS! he has to get high with me! HAHA
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → hahah, i dont knoww. never thought it was important much
080. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
081. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, DUH UH!
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → hahaha, someone in the middle

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → hahahah, i dont lose my glasses, i break them.
084. Ran away from home → Thought about it...
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → hahaha knives are meant for cooking, not killing....
086. Killed somebody → well, if i did, i probably wouldnt admit it, right? :/
087. Broken someone's heart → hahah. i didnt have the chance/right to ask him
088. Been arrested → HAHA, me?! im so guai. i'd probably be arrested for being too nerdy....
089. Cried when someone died → yes. although i didnt know the person, and i wasnt crying FOR that person..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → HAHAHAHA, what kind of stupid question is this? YES LUH!
091. Miracles → HAHAHA, i believe that someday, emily could be called smart! HAHA JOKE. yes luh, yes.
092. Love at first sight → yeppp. im a romantic at heartt.
093. Heaven → GOD IS THE BESTEST!
094. Santa Claus → HAHA, i dont think so.
095. Sex on the first date → EW. EW. EW.
096. Kiss on the first date → hahaha. not really?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → hahah. yes..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → YESSSSSSSS! IM SUPER HAPPY:D
099. Do you believe in God → YEPPP!
100. This is the 100th and last → Huh? i dont get it. hahaha. i guess so?

HAHA.
anywayy, i realized something yesterday.
hahaha, i actually have the taiwanese jelly snack thingy in my house.
im not sure whether i blogged about it before,
but for the past two years,
i have been wanting to buy the taiwanese snack thingy from chinatown.
and every time we go to chinatown, i ask daddy whether we can buy it.
and he says no EVERYTIME we walk past a stall selling the snacks.
(thats a lot of times, cause the snack's being sold practially everywhere at chinatown)
and i would pout at mummy, but she would be like, listen to daddy luh ):
and yesterday, i was feeling hungry,
and i saw this pink box on my dining table.
and i opened it,
AND SAW THE LOVELY JELLYYY!
HAHAHAAHAH. mum told me she bought it like,
BEFORE chinese new year,
and i haven't noticed it all this while!
HAHAHAHA. coooool eh?
anyway ive gotta go luh.
GOT SO MUCH TO DOOOO!
and btw, i realized my previous post's wierd.
the last part isnt meant be so secretive.
HAHA.
BYE, MISS ME!<3

2009-02-03T00:53:00.000-08:00

mmm.
what if, one day, the one you loved the most, left you?
will you have,
the strength to continue?
the courage to walk each step,
regardless of the crippling pain in your heart?
would you be able to talk,
with that tightness in your throat every moment?
would you be able to listen to music,
when every song reminded your love?
would life,
really matter to you,
from that point onwards?
i dont know the answers.
neither do i ever want to.
Pain never seemed so close, so near,so real.

i missed the hurt you hid behind your eyes.
never noticed how your laugh was pained,
that you had secrets.
if i could, i would hold you,
i wouldn't let you hurt, or cry.
ill hold you dear,
make you smile
i'd want to show you that,
life's better than that.

hey. as you can see im in no mood to laugh and be happy on my blog.
im not gonna say much.
try reading between the lyrics, the words, the lines.
you'll probably understand better that way.

Pieces Of Me - Ashlee Simpson
On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
....

Fool Again - Westlife

Baby
I know the story,
I've seen the picture
It's written all over your face
Tell me
What's the secret
That you've been hiding
...
Baby
You should have called me
When you were lonely
When you needed me to be there
Sadly
You never gave me
Too many chances
To show you how much I care
....

For You I Will - Teddy Geiger ( LOVE HIM! )
Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

i'll cry for you,
for the future,
for the fact that,
nothing good ever lasts.
so we'll just have to make do,
with the moment,
before time passes away too fast,
let me tell you now
how much i love you,
so i wont regret
when i've missed the chance to.

2009-02-02T03:10:00.000-08:00

hey.
first match today!
yepp. won 9-1 with DARLINGGGGGGG! (emmewelly)
and won 3-2 over all (crys, ness)
hahah,
after, DARLINGGGG & i had to do this bloody irritating drill.
she lob, i volley/smash.
SADLY, she (claims she) cant lob (her lobs are way spinny& HIGH!)
and im short.
so yes, do the maths. it went like this: darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
darling lobs, i jump, i miss, ruth&ness laugh.
... you get the picture....
lyn was lousy today. she saw me and went: FLORENCE!
hahaha, sadly, she wasnt happy to see me, she was happy to see my bag-.-
so she could bully me):
HAHAHHA but still <3 her luh.

i found this funny
HOW GUYS FLIRT:

1. He stares at you alot.

2. He hits you alot. (just play hitting )

3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a converstaion with you

4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mum that day she picked you up from school.

5. He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone.

6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process

7. His voice gets softer when ever you two talk.

8. You hung up on him. He called you back.

9. You were invited by him to a group outing.

10. He called you to talk about nothing at all.

11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do laugh PRETTY LOUD. Which makes you laugh even harder...

12. He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation

13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes.

14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair, face, thighs, KNEES,ect.) (SEXUAL HARRASSMENT!)

HOW GIRLS FLIRT:

1.She calls you by your full name not just a nick name.

2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny.

3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.

4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.

5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face.

6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested.

7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.

8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.

9. You catch her staring at you.

10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you.

11. Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.

12. She knows your phone number and address. ( stalker much? )

13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible

Now make a wish...

> >>

Ok stop! Your wish will come true if you repost this

if you don't repost this then you will never get asked out or you will lose the one u love?!!!!

repost this in 15 min and your wish will come true in 5 days.

repost this in 10 min and your wish will come true in 3 days.

repost this in 5 min and your wish will come true in 1 days

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hahahah, i think some are quite dumb, but it made me laugh, so its here.
(please dont be idiots and repost this, okay?)
hahaha, i used to believe those kind of emails, and send out likt 500 over a day.
but i grew smart.
HAHA.
anyway, here are some pictures that are WAY overdue
(everyone please look at sarah&my "uncle" accusingly!)

K& BUBBLES!

HI MOMMA!

(:

HAHA both guys are my uncles.
WEIRD EH!

blowwwwwwww bubbles!

RED!

my eyes damn fake la. ):

HAHA, tanline!

:D :P :*

no i wasnt acting cute. i was trying to colour accent my hairband (WHICH I LOST! ): )

rah, me line. its been a while, love.

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
ily(:

playgrounddd!

im cool at swinging!

(:

:D :)

RED!

she wanted to kiss me lah (secretly)

:*

gonna go now! BYE!

winning a match alone,
isnt as sweet as winning with you by my side, darl! (: <3

2009-01-30T21:31:00.000-08:00

hey partyyyyyy yesterdayy!:D
ah, now i know how hard being a host is.
hahaha, for example:
etcha: eh, can you bring my phone up?
andy: can you bring my camera?
simin: i want pizza!
michelle: i want sushi
bobo: i want water.
hahahahahaha omgggg, so everytime they wanted something, i had to run up and down all three flights of stairs. whoaaaa, i'd bet i lost weight man.
hahahah yeah, so recount on who came:
michelle, sarah, chris, kelly, chloe, michelle, si minny, etcha, andy, dorothy, sherilyn, bobo.
hahhahah okay, i think i didnt leave any names out. hahaha,
12 people:D so yeahhhh. i was supposed to walk lyn and bobo in at 6.30, but bobo was smartly superrrr late. hahaha. so walked lyn in. (omg i keep typing sher by accident)
hahah. walked&talked.
and by the time i walked lyn in, i had to walk back to parkway to walk bobo.
hahahah. and lyn was poor thingly pangsehed by me.
( SORRY LYN! I LOVELOVELOVE YOU!) hahaha, momma likes lyn:D
so yepp, walked bobo in.
and then i gave them my cheesecake, that i had to freeze just so that it'll live till yesterday.
hahahah, lyn said the cheese part was nice,
bobo's secretly thinks it nice. hahahaha.
so yepp. then everyone started trickling in.
kelly, chloe
andy, etcha.
then chris.
then at 830, sarah, michelle, siminny, dorothy finally came.
hahahaha, so yeppp.
party was coollll(:
hahahah, went playground after:D
etcha ALMOST DIED WITH SARAH! OMG!
pictures!

group photo! ah, let my attempt to label. Fornt: siminny, me, dorothy, michelle Middle: rah, andy Back: bobo, chris, chloe, kelly, etcha, lyn (i think they're a bit blurry. sorry): )

andy so pretty!

rah, cute baby, cute baby's mum, me. haahhaa.

chris, me, bobo. hahah, im damn tall lah please!

<3!!!

hahaha, eh i like, damn pro at mahjong can!

pretty womannnn in black!

dorothy!<3

random proto with crys at combined school's competition today.

kaili! hahahh she has a beanstalk "boyfriend" HAHA

hahah, cousssssssssins!

rah, minny, me

:) :( :0

:p :) :o

hahaha, shit, the disgusted look): i dont like eeetcha!

chloe boeyy. the first time she allowed me to take pictures with her:D

:D i see andy!

LYN!!!!!

hahahah, chris, me, hsiang yeh, dorothy, lyn!

hahahaha, random picture with kuku&crystal:D

and combined schools thingy today.
wthhh, i had to wake up at 6.
(and i slept at 2 plus! >:( )
hahaha, it was soso luh. i kinda improved?
:D
played danielle and some other girl.
anyway, first match on monday.
KYLIE'S PLAYING UP!
shite.
hahaha. on the bright side, i get to see her luh.
hahaha, gotta go studyyyyyy!
zuowen)))))))))))))))))):
BYE!

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

2009-01-29T03:51:00.000-08:00

hey you.
haha, i've been thinking too much lately,
and getting badddd insomnia.
but here's the result of all the thinking.
hahah. i was thinking to myself, what love really means.
here's my list
LOVE IS:
when you're not afraid to tell someone all the silly things you did, because you know the person wont judge you

when you never want to tell the person that he/she's hurt you, cause you dont want them to hurt too.

when you smile all day because the person complimented you

when you say sorry a million times, cause you're afraid the person will hate you for doing something wrong

when you keep your tears to yourself, because you dont want him/her to worry for you

when you do stupid things, cause love makes you stupid

haha, those are some of my definitions. what're yours?;D

here's some of other people's

qiqi: love is attraction and attraction after 27 years ( i think this was meant to be in chinese:D)

anusha: love is like sunlight, elusive bu omnipresent(always there) and energizing

Melinda: love is real, not just in poetry or novels

Angeline: love is when you blindly trust someone, will do ANYTHING for that person, when you cant live without that person

SARAH!: love is unconditional, the willingness to do anything just to see the loved ones happy

Dorothy: love is being avle to give up anything for someone, no matter how ridiculous it seems

yiru: love is the irresistable desire to be irresistably desired

jieyuan: love is care and share

Bella: love is unjustifiable ( SOOOO TRUE)

Rachel: love is like magic, but magic can sometimes be an illusion( RACH, YOU SUCK!)

Amanda: love is goooooooooooooooooooood (hahahahah, she's cool that way)

LYN!: love is like playing with fire. if you're not careful, it leaves a scar(EMOOOOOO BABY! but nontheless true)

Gene: love is a double edged sword (HAHA, so SS)

caroline: love cannot be defined, but you can see it in people's eyes.

Joanne: love is passion (clicheeee much, but still lovely)

Daphne: love is caring, love is kid, love is something in our minds (SO CUTE!)

Michelle T: love is blind(AGREED BABY!)

simin: love is.......(indescribeable) (LAME MIN! HAHA)

gabriella: love is the strongest feeling one can have

Joan: love is a deep force of attraction for the opposite party (partially true only, love:/)

Michelle S: love is unreasonable & unquestionable( amen to that)

Tiffany: love is everything one can ask for (HAHA, SHE MEANS ME!:D)

Felicia: love is everything a girl could ask from a guy ( i swear she&tiff are twins) (why is love only reserved for guys huh!)

Ariel: love is life's ultimate good and its most effective destroyer. And it loves ariel. And florence loves ariel.( she's lying)

hahah, so yepp, thats all i have right noww.
gonna get more sooon!
PARTYYYYYY TOMORROW!
michelle, ahrah, andy, etcha, min, lyn, dorothy, bobo, chris, kelly, melinda
HAHA, gonna be cooooooool.
training was fun.
IM PROBABALY PLAYING WITH EMMMY WELLY!!!!!!!
LOVE!
hahahahah.
OH LYN!
I THINK YOU'RE SMOKING HOTTTTTTTT!
i lovelovelovelovelovelove your version of a little piece of heaven.
:D :D :D
tournament on monday......
no comment?
i decided i wont post whole songs, just nice lyric parts:D

If you're not the one - daniel bedingfield.

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

only love - trademark
But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

bye nowwww!

2009-01-26T20:03:00.001-08:00

hey, nothing much, so ill just post super overdue pictures.

farewell

grandmama! they say i look like her!

this picture's super special to me. its a first. A would understand what i mean.

ooh, sacry..

HEELS&SNEAKERS! B&i are cool people!

B&i! B's so handsome eh!;)

yo momma!

hahah, see the height diff?

(:

haha, M took this for me.

K&bubble. (his face wasnt supposed to be there.)

haha, failed attempt at taking a picture of a bubble.

whoooo. playgroundddd!

M&i. sorry its a litle blurry):

bobo says girls are complicated.
HAHA, thats the first time ive heard that from a guy.
BYE!

A lill' love a day, make you happy, always

2009-01-25T16:49:00.000-08:00

CNY gathering on mumsie's side.
went for dinner at "Famous Crab Restaurant",
but didnt eat crab.
haha, how weird is that?
and i didnt really have a proper lunch,
so like yesterday,
i was hungryy.
ate beans, and walked about a bit, trying to forget i was hungry.
oh did i mention,
we were early for like, the first time.
we're usually 30 mins late.
teehee.
yeah, dinner started at 6 plus.
lohei.
hahaha, i dont know why, but i wasnt really interested in meat.
so i was like, 85% a vegetarian that night.
:D
sissy would be proud of me.
HAHA<3><
when i woke this morning (7AM!!!!!!)
i realized i didnt take off my contacts,
although i remembered to remove my mascara.
scary.
i feel like cooking breakfast for my family:D

Bestfriend

bestfriend,
thats what you are.
there's no awkwardness,
even as we stand side by side,
with no words to cry.

bestfriend,
between us
a friendship that,
no words
can describe

bestfriend,
my pillar of
strength and support
when i fall,
when i hurt.

bestfriend,
no matter
what happens
you'll always have
a place
in my heart.

hahah, i randomly wrote that this morning.
thanks to A for bring me cookies!
they were especially nice,
cause you saved them for me!:D
hahah. random thoughts below..
i think people who find a partner they love and can make them happy,
are really lucky.
BUTT, no, i dont think people who dont have the above arent lucky.
:D cause everyone's lucky,
cause everyone's loved by someone.
hahaha.
im cheesy.
BYE!

maybe im wrong,
its all in my head.

bubbles are pretty(:

2009-01-24T15:46:00.000-08:00

"reunion dinner" last night.
was pretty cool.
hahah, i was starrrrrving by 7, cause my lunch was at 11.30):
and i kept filling up on watermelons.
but i was still hungry.
so i kinda ate too fast and oh my mama.
i felt baddd after that.
(note to self: dont eat too many watermelons)
and N,J&B cycled around the inside of grandmama's house
its been so long since we've done that:/
then B decided to go to parkway with my uncle.
and i went to parsir ris, for the chalet.
and when i got there, i was like, sooooooo.
which of the people here are like, my relatives?
i didnt reconise ANY of them.
awkwarddd moments followed.
then people started leaving,
and i was sitting with mum, K&J.
hahaha, i cant even rmb J's full name.
lousy me):
and we played with bubbles!
THEY WERE SOOOO PRETTY!
K kept suaning me, using the excuse that he's my uncle (major eye roll baby!)
hahaha, J took nice pictures.
mine were ugly):
he's sending me the pics soon,
so you'll get to see how pretty bubbles are
hahaha. and oh my gosh,
K came and told me, that grandmama told everyone i scored 6As for my recent exam.
and i like, haha, okay,
when did i suddenly become so smart?:/
and in the end, i found out it was cause grandmama combined my chinese Olev results with my EOYs results.
hahaha, it sounds really nice when you look at it that way.
HAHA.
K's lousy
hahaha i asked whether he had been visiting the gym.
and he gave that sad face and said: cannot tell meh?
hahahhahah, then later, he ACTUALLY smsed me to ask again whether it was obvious he had been working out.
hahahahahahaha, i was like, laughing out loud to myself at 12 midnight.
and i woke up at a crazy time this morning.
6.30.
ah sighh. its been going on for quite sometime already, this insomnia-ish thingy.
CNY gathering tonightttt! soo looking forward.
gonna go now!

(i didnt know i had this song on my ipod. it got played, and its a nice song:D )
Maybe - Jay Sean

Beep Beep! oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hopin it's a text from you..hmm..
It aint right,
Read ya messages twice, thrice four times a night, its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feelin like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
As knowing I wasn't waiting in vain..

Maybe its true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too
Maybe i'm wrong
It's all in my head
Maybe we're awaiting words we both hadn't said

I'm always connected online
Hooked on facebook all the time
Hopin you've checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why,
You play it cool but,
see I'm hopelessly fallin for you,
Every night
On the phone and I flirt with you..
and I know that you like it girl
All jokin aside,
What say you and I
Come out and say what we're trying to hide..

maybe its true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too
maybe im wrong
It's all in my head
Maybe we're awaiting words we both hadn't said

Like I really want you,
I think I need you,
Baby I miss you,
I'm thinking of you

Maybe its true (OH)
I'm caught up on you (maybe, yeah)
Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too (Stuck on me too)
maybe i'm wrong (Hey baby, yeah..)
It's all in my head.. (OH NO)
Maybe we're awaiting words we both hadn't said
(both haven't said)

Maybe its true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too
Maybe i'm wrong, it's all in my head
Maybe we're awaiting words we both hadn't said

Maybe it's true..(Baby I miss you)
I'm caught up on you (Look I want you)
Maybe I am wrong
Baby I miss you...

2009-01-23T23:52:00.000-08:00

H: if one rainbow has 7 colours, how many colours do 7 rainbows have?
me: 49 luh!
H: HEEHEE.
me: oh shit.
hahaha H tricked me. that idiot.
KE came today.
hahaha, he looks better than he used to, but still looks weird.
peircinggggs:/
YH came.
i dont like N anymore, i like YH now.
nick doesnt know how YH did for o's.
irritating.
hahaha
nick shocked my by saying: " i think YH would probably ignore you"
oh my mama. hahaha.
then he explained, saying YH is emo.
(note, N&YH are private jokes :DDDDD dont read too much into them)
T was being her usual self.
T: eh, do you realize M always looks over to your courts?
um, well no. i dont really care. haha.
she said one of the korean guys was cute.
mmhmm, i dont share her point of veiw.
but their control of the ball's really good.
like impressively good.
haha, i hit CF by accident.
J's fault.
he was sooo trying to hit me, and when i tried to hit him back,
i kept missing.
BLAH.
ate with nick after training.
dad decided to be nice and fetch us without us asking him.
tuition was, whoaaaaaaaaa.
sleeeeepy.
went to playground after that.
some indian men thought it would be really nice to sleep in the open and wake up when i walk past.
8-/
mmhmm.
i just saw something on facebook.
SHOCKINGGG LIKE ANYTHING!
A'D BETTER SPILL EVERYTHING!
family gathering tonight.
gonna see "uncle" K for the first time since like,
(technically, he's too young to be my uncle)
yepp, gotta go noww.
still dont know who's coming this friiii.
i really want a sleepover, but i have training.
see how i guess! :D
sher's new nickname is LYN!
and oh, emilyyyyyyyyyy's a darling!
:D <3

2009-01-23T03:55:00.000-08:00

hey you.
yesterday was training.
it was hot, hot, and did i mention hot?
although it was frustrating at times, it was also really funny(:
well let me show you why.
emily, crys, ruth and i were sitting at the steps, resting.
so i randomly asked: coach, how tall is your wife?
CA: 1.58, why?
em&i: HUH! SO SHORT!?
CA: no what. okay lorr.
me: HAHA, okay so coach, if i bring a1.9 or 1.8 boyfriend to training one day, what will your reaction be?
coach:...
then he kinda sniggers in the coach-y way, and walked off,
leaving me and emily shouting COACHHHHHH! and laughing at the same time.
then when training was about to end,
he gathered all of us at the fence.
then there was this cute jc student walking past,
so i kinda glanced at him, then back at coach, then glanced at him, then back at coach again.
AND OH MY GAWD!
coach noticed my flickering glances,
and HE TURNED AND LOOKED AT THE GUY!
(luckily his back was facing us by this time)
and coach said: eh, 1.8 huh?
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAAHAH.
emily and crys got it and laughed.
oh my goshhhhhhhhhhh. i was really embarassed.
hahahahaha, coach is so cute lah.
<3:d>
then today.
we were kinda expecting a halfday, but it turned out to be a full day in the end
:C
anyway, madam audra was really funny.
cause i said that, to me, sports was anything that made you sweat.
and she was like, so if im sitting down and sweating, that makes me a professional sweater
and if i go to the suana, im a professional suana-er.
HAHA, funnny. i like her.
MT was nice too.
we kept teasing him about his salary and his cheap house.
so he was like: you all ah! i dont want to teach you all anymore!
and he threw down his marker in a gayish way.
which was really cute.
HAHA.
i think he's nice too:D
although he CAN be mean at time, and REALLY lame,
he's still nice, in a weirdish way.
:D HAHA.
was supposed to go out with min&rah and some other people,
but i didnt want to in the end.
haha. anyway,
i feel disgusting now.
i smell like sweeet cookies, oil, vegetables and luncheon meat.
BLARFGHGHHG!
disgusting.
im almost done with everything:D
HAPPY!
looking forward to CNY gathering&seeing maine again.
gotta go now!

i dont want to put my life on hold&wait all day just for you.
tell me, if this is just going nowhere.

2009-01-21T06:32:00.000-08:00

hey you.
met kelly (again) today.
it was funny, like always.
we realized we have different preferences of what size of guys we like.
she prefers guys who are bigger than R, and i think people of Y size are just nice.
hahah, shant disclose the identity of the people,
cause that'll be rude><
anyyyway, we ate and talked and then we went to restring our rackets.
she left to buy her friend's cake after and i stayed to do work.
gosh, i was so sleepy, i kinda fell asleep while doing chinese.
omg right?
anyway, i shant ramble about my day.
im just gonna put random facts that you dont know, or maybe you do know, about myself.

Top 5 things that irk me A LOT.
5) when people judge what i make by the ingredients i put into it.
4) when people go around spreading rumours that aren't true
3) people going around insulting my friends
2) when people ask me whether i have a sister in cedar who's 2 years my junior
AND THE NO 1 THING THAT REALLY IRRITATES ME THE MOST
1) when people dont reply me for no apparent reason.
>:(

hurmph. that applies to a super load of people.
anyway, dinner was irritating. it encompassed no5 of my list.
mum was cooking chicken soup for dinner,
and i suggested frying the vegetables before adding them in,
making the soup more tasteful.
and she gave me the "okayyyy" look.
i just ignored it and fried the vegetables.
and then she said: " i want this soup to be thick-ish"
so i was like, okay, lets add a roux to the soup.
(im not sure whether thats the right way to say it)
roux is basically butter and flour added to thicken the soup.
and she was like, uhhhhhh.
and i kinda not listened to her again and prepared the roux.
i added it to the soup,
tasted it.
and it was cool.
like you could taste the difference(:
and i was happy.
then during dinner, she was like: i dont like the soup.
and she told my brother that i added butter to the soup.
and he was like EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I DONT WANT!
so i asked him to try, and he was like, YUCKKKKKKKKK!
(heart-very-painnnn)
i still thought it was okay.
then dad came back, and i purposely didnt tell him about the "special" touch to the soup.
and he went: " whoa, your mummy very good. anyhow add things to the soup and it still tastes so good"
AND I WAS LIKE,
HA! YOU JUST DIDN'T LIKE IT CAUSE YOU THINK ITS NOT NICE!
I MAKE MY POINT!
so i was relishing my accomplished feeling(:
yeah, anyway.
i gave up on project 1 cause it tasted terrible,
and looked terrible.
therefore, it WAS terrible.
LOL.
project 2's no bad, but its gonna take alot of work.
so im not sure whether i want to give like,
14*20,
which equals to 280 cookies,
which equals to baking 3/4 batches.
anyway, gotta go!

so.. what am i supposed to feel?

2009-01-19T23:42:00.000-08:00

hey you(:
there're so many things going through my mind currently,
so i dont really know what to blog about:/
lets start with monday.
school, training.
uhmm, i cant remember anything much about school.
(other than studies 8-/)
after, met with tennis people at the foyer.
they were obsessing over blonde jokes.
hahah. some were really stupid, other were just omggg, lame.
and mrRtan was so bimbotic.
i asked him what phone (referring to the brand) did he have,
and he was like: oh, MOBILE phone.
-.- i told the rest and they were laughing.
ruth claims my hair is an artificial colour.
eh im smart lah.
hahaha, i have MORE than half a brain luh.
teehee.
whoa, yck was hot.
therefore, training was hot.
and in conclusion, im black(er) now.
after, went to meet QD.
havent seen him in agesssssssssssss!
HE'S SO TALL NOW!
got him his tickets and left.
he wanted dinner, but i was too tired, and not in the mood.
then today,
PE in the morn.
warmup jog was funny:
(while running past an insecticided foggy area)
me: eh, melinda, your fart damn smelly lah.
mel: hahaha, yes, its so powerful, it can kill mosquitoes!
(running past rubbish dump)
mel: eh, your fart is worse.
me: haha, no, that's sis's fart. eh sis, why your fart so smelly?
sis: haha, learn from you one what!

ahumm. yeah, my friends/classmates are retarded.
and maths was funny.
but chinese was baddd.
we had some worksheet to do.
and it was about trees
and i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
im so shitty, but i gave up, and i didnt finish it.
im just so tired of trying&trying&trying.
sighhhh.
tuition's not gonna save me this time...

random things that were said:
"I'd rather go through all the heart aches while playing with you, rather than not play with you at all."

I'm telling you that this path path gets you there faster.
You have to cross that field, jump over the fence, only then will you get to the destination. However, when you just begin walking, you might step into mud, you might fall, and you'll feel discouraged. You think of giving up, but i can tell you, after the mud, there is a carpeted path for you to walk on.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT!
I KNOW WHO VISITS MY BLOG NOW!
HAHAHAHHA!:D

so you are ignoring me then.
if this is what you want,
then there's nothing i can,
and will do.

2009-01-17T21:43:00.000-08:00

finally changed my skin
suits me better now, doesnt it? :D
wedding dinner was cool,
veron(the bride) was really pretty!
saw charmaine for the first time in AGES!
miss her soo much.
anyway, told her about __
and she said, hahah, a lot of things.
and she thinks i suck for having said somethings.
and i do agree.
i AM quite a sucker):
):):):):
__'s probably not going to talk to me ever again if this continues
sighh.
but ah well, i have to say, i love her loads!
cause cousins, remain cousins forever.
and friends, do judge you sometimes,
so some things cant be said:/
she's funny as ever,
and she and dwyane are still so lovely together.
and she's probably going to smile kukuly after she sees this.
(:
i've decided on what im going to bake for chinese new year alr.
but ill keep it a secret!(:
going to mass bake (alone)
yes, i have training,
i have tournament,
i have o's, studies.
BUT HECK,
its CHINESE NEW YEAR!
so yeah, i deserve a break.
hahahaa.
anyway, today was quite retarded( as usual)
i had to wake up at an unearthly time of 7 am.
and i didnt have good sleep last night.
woke up like three times.
and i couldnt really get back to sleep after that.
yes, it is THAT thing that was keeping me awake.
tuition was, same old same old.
went grocery shopping after.
bought like SO MUCH for cny.
we're having parties!<3
i felt kinda dumb, cause i wanted my cornflakes,
but they were like 2m above ground,
so obviously i was unable to get it ):
and yes, i contemplated jumping...
and yes.. i admit considering climbing.
but NO, i didnt do it, and look like a stupid monkey,
as many of you would expect -.-
so i stood there feeling stupid for 5mins
frowning,i thought: eh, i need a tall boyfriend lah.
and i kinda digressed to what traits my husband should have...
and i realized that people were staring at me,
cause i was, haha, kinda blocking their way.
whoopies.
so i gave up, and got a helper to get it for me.
and sooo, i took 15 mins to get my first item
im SOO time efficient huh! (:
anyway, nothing much else luh.
gonna go noww.

true - ryan cabrera ( partial)

...
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
...





i know im lousy,
and this isnt the first time
that ive screwed up.
and, actually ive been lying to you.
i do like you, more that i should.
and i keep saying stupid things,
when i talk to you.
im really sorry):
dont go on ignoring me like you are now, okay? ):

2009-01-15T06:34:00.000-08:00

just some sexy pictures there.
on the top are pictures of some chocolate cake, and bottom, are mararoons.
I KNOW HOW TO GET THE ALMOND OUT OF ITS SKIN NOW!:D
blanch.
it was so cool, cause you can just press the skin out.
really cute
i miss bakingggggg):
anyway, we had some discussion over whether i should take HCL or not,
and after a long frustrating discussion, we decided.
im taking.
yepp, im just going to try my best,
and see what that gets me.
and mum was being annoying.
she came up to my room, and lied down on my bed.
this is what happens.
she keeps quiet for a while then says: so why aren't you talking about __ today?
me: mom, shut uppppppppp!
mom (silent for a while then) says: so you arent gonna talk about __?
me: MOM! SHHHHHHT!
mom: i think you're in love with __.
me: MOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM! NO! IM TRYING TO STUDY HERE!
mom: okay.(pauses) so you really aren't going to talk about him?

YES, SHE'S REALLY LIKE THAT!
grah.
hahaha, anyway, i was going though all my books, and i found a damn gay one my aunt gave me.
its red, not really sexy, and its title is: teenage love.
and it has hearts all over it.
made me laugh at it's tween-ness.
im lazy to find it back,
but i remember one line from it.
it was under signs a girl like you.
it went: one of the signs are if you just walk out of a room you were in with her, and you hear her shout: OH HE IS SOOOO FINE!.
HAHAHAAHA, omg, like which idiot would scream "OH HE IS SO FINE" after her crush walked out?!
that'll be so gay.
HAHA.yeah, feeling sleepy already (at 11.11 pm?!)
my sleep toleration is getting bad.
to rah: GOODLUCKY FOR TOMORROW!
loves to all(: (: (:
BYE

ps: im sooo sorry isaac, that im pangsehing your birthday.
ill get you your food-y vouchers
(and huimin along with the package!)
:D

2009-01-13T23:44:00.000-08:00

umm, no time to post much.
yesterday wasnt what i expected.
i thought it would have been more fun.
dont really want to comment more.
and there was some other thing that didnt really upset me yesterday,
but kinda just hit me today.
and im disappointed.
extremely.
soooo. yeppp.
why does everyone say im inhumanely hardworking?
im not >:/
im just a normal human being who's afraid she's gonna screw her os.
yeah, love to everyone,
going for training now.

2009-01-12T04:46:00.000-08:00

today was weird.
it was olev results day.
everyone was high and all at first.
i was kinda emotionlessly stoned, cause it meant i was getting back my results.
and that was kinda, umm, weird. cause i knew i wasnt really gonna do well,
and would probably get b3/b4
and so i was like, doing maths while everyone was celebrating cedar's superb 9.0 msg.
so yeahh.. and i was trying to tune ange out casue she was highing,
and i was kinda irritated (not at her) cause i was feeling, weird.
so yepp. then after we went to see sec 4s receive olev results, everyone kinda rushed to their classes,
and i kinda just zombied along, reading some jc admission book.
and embarrassingly, i was the last to enter the class, and everyone kinda stared at me like i was mad.
yeah, and teacher was kinda saying how so many people didnt do well,
and its cause they didnt put in effort anyway.
and in my head i kept going: well, SOME people put in effort, and they're rewarded with E8s...
so i kinda half listened and half read my phamflet cause what she said didnt apply to me
(i dropped after being so severely discouraged by mdm goh)
she mentioned that one pupil in our class got b4,
and we have like half of the total students who didnt get A1/2
and she ended her lecture and sat down.
and she was like: di yi ge xue shen lai nai ni de chen ji che. jia hui!
(can the first pupil come and get her result slip? florence!)
and i was like OH SHIT, WHY did i have to suffer first?
and i went up, and she said in a super emotionless voice + face
(in chinese) florence congrats, you got a1. please sign here.
and i was like oh, huh. okay sign, take paper and walk back.
and i didnt really believe i got a1.
i mean what's the odds of that?!
so i sat down, with my head spinning, and tried to interpret my result slip.
i failed at that.
so i asked my partner, what did i get?
and she glanced at my slip and went: i dont know.
so i turned to audrey and azel and asked.
and they were like : OH MY GOD YOU GOT A1!
and then it hit me.
I GOT A FREAKING A1.
and yes, i started pathetically crying.
><
and i had to wait for everyone to get their results before i could go trick my mum into believing i got b4.
so yeah,
wait, sob, wait, pathetically sob... waitt....
and at the end, lao shi was like:
some people in this class, didnt put in the effort, and didnt get their results.
and some people, " nu li le yi zhen nian, zhong yu de dao le ta men de hao chen ji"
(worked hard and finally gof their good results)
" hao xiang jia hui)
(for eg: florence)
AND OH DAMN, i stopped crying then, and she made me sob again.
shitzzzzzzzz.
so yepp, can out and called mum.
and told her.
after she smsed me: you cry, make me cry. my collegues think im crazy.
oh i love her:D
yepp.
its like those cliche fairy tales. where the girl works hard, fails, and finally succeeds in the end.
(:
now all i need is my prince charming
HAHAHAHA. joke.
yepp. seniors did damn well:
CHERICE: 7A1s B3 for chinese! ( OMG SMART LOVELY WOMAN!)
KELLY: L1R5: 7 (minus 4, and she got 3!)
CHLOE: L1R5: 7 (minus2, so 5!)
SI YING: L1R5 10 (:
so yepppp.
smarts asses i have for seniors.
yepp. love them all.
miss themmmm soooooooo much.
tomorrow's gonna be fun.
time spent with: jiayee, kelly&chloe&siying, sarah.
who could ask for more?<3
see you(:

2009-01-10T18:45:00.000-08:00

im probably crazy, risking my head by blogging about this.
but i think im in love, serious love.
hahah. sighhhhhhhhhhhh.
im in love with pmupkins(:
HAHA, yes, i know you're going like, flo's crazy already.
anyway, i woke up at 7 today to go to the market with mum.
i slept at 1.30 the previous night, so waking up was super sacrificing.
hahah. yeah, then went to get the food.
the shopkeepers always go: whoa, you're like the only youth here (in teochew/mandrin whatever.)
ahaha, its weird, cause you see the whole market crowded with middle aged to grandmamas and you see me.
hahah, yepp.
then i went to the veg stall, and i was kinda curious what the diff kinds of vegs are.
so i always ask the uncle, and he tells me in chinese. and im like, soooooo, whats that in english again?
and this auntie must have thought i was damn cute/weird. cause she kept smiling at me.
and then i went for breakfast at the foodcourt.
and i walked past this vegetarian stall and saw some orange things that i assumed were pumpkins.
and i asked the lady, and she was like, yes.
and i kinda asked her how to prepare pumpkins, and she gave me THE LOOK and answered:
just cook lorrr
major -.-
yeah, and i felt like eating prata, so i ordered one.
and i went back to try the pumpkins.
AND OH MY LALA!
the pumpkins were surprisingly soft and really creamy.
you cant even taste the fiber-y parts.
and it was SOOOOOO good.
it was really unlike the ones i tried roasting: hard, and tasteless.
it makes me think why im not a vegetarian.
and oh,
the prata was really really good too.
it was soft and fluffy,
unlike those tough chewy ones that cause your metal cutlery to bend.
the curry made it all even better.
the best part: $0.70 for one.
mmmmh.
im soooo gonna go back and eat my pumpkins and prata.
\
anyway, i've decided on the mains benefits of being fit:
1) you're able to run and catch the bus.
2) you're not sweating bomb and ruining your outfit&hair by the time you get the bus
3) you can stand up in less than a second, compared to pushing and huffing yourself up (major unglamness)
4) 2.4 doesnt make you feel depressed every year.

and the two MAIN reasons that i LOVE tennis physical:
1) you can whip up a meringue BY HAND and not feel that your muscles are dead.
2) you can carry many bags of flour at a time so mum doesnt say you can only buy 1kg of flour cause you cant carry it! :D
SEE, i love being a tennis player cum baker.
rocks like no one's business.
HAHAHAHA.
my tummy fats are aching although i didnt do sit ups yesterday.
must be the 100 OVER pushups i did yesterday >:( all their fault.
humpf.
im feeling dumb now.
i did redox although ms chng hasnt taught finish.
(: shall go now

2009-01-10T05:30:00.000-08:00

heyyy.
havent blogged in a while(:
yeah, lazy to tell you everything.
not like anyone would read and be interested 8(
hahhah.
yepp. shall just talk about yesterday and today(:
well, school was cool ( HAHA RHYME!)
i like chem experiments(: aluminnnnnnnium!
then training was like, usual.
OH WED! karl, aaron, thi ha and weilun came down to play with us.
BLOODY FUNNY. i seriously laughed until my cheeks hurt.
hahaha.
anyway, after tennis, helped count money. long story.
but anyway, saw MR!
hahahahah, emily and i were high over that. but aiyuh, dont really fancy him luh.
lol. anyway, baked cookies for saturday morn.
they were nice(:
and then at 12, sarah was supposed to collect her cookies.
BUT she ended up staying over(:
stayed up till3, then decided i needed sleep.
hahaha, yepp.
SAT
rah went back early, like 8.
training was cool. hassan was funny.
he kept calling me ahlian.
hahahah, and i think his court had a great time laughing ALONG with me ( not AT me:D )
i did something dumb. i saw this big butterfly at the corner of my eye, and i thought it was a tennis ball.
so i ducked.
and hassan& yonghe saw and hassan was like: if you're scared of butterflies, how to be a tennis player?!
HAHA. yeah, then changed and had a funny convo with amanda&tricia.
tricia: hey, did you watch ____(some new taiwanese drama)?
amanda: nope, but i can guess what its about. ROMANCE.
amanda: and i can also guess what's the lead guy's name
amanda(looks at me)&i: CHRIS!
amanda&i: HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
i: and you know what the girl's name is? WONG!
amanda: HUH, OMG HE has a WONG girlfriend?!?!?!!
i: oh shit, i meant TAN, i forgot tricia's sirname! HAHAHAA
amanda&I: HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

and behind us were yonghe&matthew.(they're CM's good friends!)
so yeppp.
then rushed off to dhoby.
saw nick at the busstop.
he made a weird sound when he saw me.
i kinda spoke to him when i got off the bus.
rich kid lah him.
mum would be happy. HAHAHAHAHA (inside joke!)
yeah, and the next part, i dont know how to say luh.
hahahah, if YOU are reading, then YOU would understand what im talking about.
hahahaha. yeppp.
eh i look smart.
CHAO SHUANG!
and yepp, the food was good. THANKS OKAY!
shopped with mum after.
finally found a pair of shades that were nice.
can people watch without being caught now:D :D :D
JOKE!
and someone made me speechless today.
me: i hate it when someone only knows someone's age, name and looks and tell me she loves the person.
person: well, you only know curtis stone's name and looks and you ALSO say you want to marrry him.
HAHA fine.
bought dress and vest.
and bedsheet. but thats not really interesting.
yeppp.
overall, today was realllllllly lovely, till dad said something bitchy.
sigh, shall not emo.
gotta go stuuuuuuuuudy chem.
hahaha, bye alll.

tell me exactly what you're getting at,
giving me mixed signals and signs.
or probably im just thinking too much,

2009-01-02T21:48:00.001-08:00

heyyy.
31thdec08/1st jan 09.
went etcha's house for newyear party.
haha, we played many funny games and all.
fuzzy duck was reallllly vulgar. (sucky f*ck/ f*cky duck.....)
hahahah, it was really funny.
drankkk stuff and jiahui was drunkyy.
i swear line was half drunk too!
yeeepppp, then countdown was weird. cause we didnt know it had already started.
then line, jiahui& grace left soon after.
played mahjong with etcha's sis&friends&suyi.
then she left, and we had to stop.
i was sooo on a roll, winning 4times in a roww(:
prrrrro
yeeahhhh, oh played some animal game.
at first i was a pig, so it was damn easy to do and i got picked on alll the time.
yikerzzzzzzz.
then i became a fish and someone stole my identity><
lala. cant rmb what else we did, cause we stayed up the whole night,
and i felt really sleepy, and yet awake.
weirdddd.
then played some other games.
joined etcha' brother's friends.
whoa, they really drink man.
first day of school
it was like, weird
cause i was sleepy and so i was kinda late.
so rushed and all, and when i wanted my racket, maid said i didnt bring back.
8(
omg. then i just rushed off.
and in the car i realized it was in my mom's boot.
and i ALSO realized i didnt bring my phone and shoes.
smart.
so yeah.
teachers:
form teach&both maths - mr tan (i was suprisingly happy to get himC: )
phy - mrs yeo (funny woman0
chem - ms chng (MAJOR YAY)
bio - mdm wong& mrs chiao (><>
ss/geog - mdm faridah.
eng - mdm audra
traininggg after.
then at like, 5.30 brian called&he said he was coming to kallang with dulcy.
hahah, so i was like, okay what time and all.
after some super complicated arranging, i decided i would just go see&sit.
so yepp,
met dulcy for the first time after like so longgg of hearing about her! (:
she's cute and all.
and i just visited her blog.
weirdly, everything i wanna say about meeting her is everything she's already said.
kooooky baby.
"Saw Florence for the first time. Hahaha. And yeah, we didn't feel weird talking to each other, she was such a chatter-box. Hahaha. So cute. (:"
hahah, eh im cute. HAHA see that?
gossiped with brina and laughed.
i quote him:
"its because she cares"
anddd (on asking him whether i give good advice) ..... yes.
HAHA!
Today
training was shag
physical physical and drills.
new head coach. he sucks compared to hassan (<3>
#@$%#@$@#$. just made me super pisseddd.
anyway, humm, i just came back from some bursary prize presentation thing.
yeah, got 300 bucks for being top10 percent in cedar.
how hot is that?! C:
the award ceremony had no hot guys ( deborah agrees) and many hot girls (she agrees too)
anyway, i was pissed-ish at someone today.
you dont like people for their looks, cause looks are superficial.
you can think a guy's cute,sexy,hot, whatever.
but you DONT like him JUST based on his looks.
cause that's just sucky okay?
>:[
just tell me he's cute, dont tell me you're IN LOVE with him
poot.
have a quote from someone which super fits this nicely
hope he doesnt mind me putting it here.
"appearance is not sustainable. character is forever. beauty in the heart is lasting"
hahaha, okay, had to go through dunno how many messages for that but it super suited.
anyway my grandad's funny.
he coped this old ahpek comedian
me: ah gong, zhe ge jiang, ni kan de qing chu ma? (granddad, can you see this prize i got clearly?)
g.dad: kan bu qing chu (no i cant see it clearly)
me(taking out $300 cheque): ah gong, zhe ge ni kan de qing chu ma? (how about this, can you see it clearly?)
g.dad: kan de qing chu! jian qian yan kai! (yes i see it clearly! when i look at money, i can see VERY clearly!)
HAHA, rolf!

2008-12-29T17:59:00.000-08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' up Tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' up Tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start.



you got me so hooked to this song,
&you dont know

2008-12-29T01:46:00.000-08:00

heyy,
i know my last post was long, but it was cause i couldnt blog for a while,
hahaha.
i realize i have to change my life goal.
i cant marry the FIRST guy i know who can cook anymore.
hahaha, i have to marry the guy who I LOVE, who can cook(:
hahaha. see, im smarttt:D
anywayyyyyyyy, brinaaaa made me laugh last night!
hahahahah that retardddddddd.
he's giving me boy advice!
i owe you biggg time okayyyyy! sorrrry!
he owes me a girl though!
C:
anyway. training suckedd cause it rained.
then we talked& coach is the funniest ever.
he advises us that when we go into a match, we must hint to the opponent that she's fat&ugly!
HAHA, okay, it wasn't that exactly, but something along those lines!
LOL. he's funnnnnny,
and crys brought some fishy game that made us all really irritated.
and we started talking about bfs&gfs (dont ask me why)
and coach says he approves of joel cause he's humble!
AHW and he says joel not bad looking!
HAHA, touchdown emily, you just got the go ahead signal!
anyway, went to macs with crys&amanda, who was totally craving macs breakfast since foreverr!
haha, sweeeeet.
fongwa&singyi joined us!(:
i realize people have many names for me.
eg: the BLACK girl (major -.-)
the SICKO girl( HAHA, one cm!:D )
so onnnnn... >:(
went off to meet etcha.
she lauyakiah lah!
hahah, i was waving to her from far, and she told me later that she was wondering who that BLACK girl was!
WTHHHHH
lame etcha!
hahhahah. yeeeep, ate subway.
im not a slow eater,
its just that andy&etcha eat TOO fast alrr!
hahaha.
yeahhhhh, came back and studied a bit.
then "breaked" for an hour!
HAHA. yeeeeeppp.
blog jumped& friendster visiteddd.
fun yo!
(:
etcha bullied bob(my stuffed dog), hippie(my hippo toyy) and bobbie (my imaginary bf that thinks etcha stinkss!)
and andy secretly loves me!
hahha, they're funny people(:
yeppp.
looking forward to wed!
sighhhhhh, im upset about something.
if you're pissed at me or if you think im irritating you,
then tell me. dont bloody ignore me.
>:(
phhffffft.
schools starting soon.
i dont wanna be a sec fourr!
ahwell, lets see how this turns out yo:D
i feel like screaming: loveeeeeee youuuuuu muchhhh! (: i miss you sherrrrrrrr.
AVENGEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! (: <3 <3
byeeeeeee!

that came, as too much of a surprise.
&theres no point telling you, cause you dont get it

2008-12-27T23:15:00.001-08:00

random song:
Break Even - The Script.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

baby, you're so obvious,
and i cant believe you dont know it.
and i cant believe HE doesnt know it.

2008-12-27T07:00:00.000-08:00

HEY! (: sorry my blog died for a while. daddy was being a bitchy and was "repairing" the com.
actually he was just keeping me away from it. phhhhhhhft. so yeppp, let me try and remember things that made me laugh! farewell was cool(:
it was on the ninteenth!
it started at 4 and everyone trickled in.
soooo, it was pot luck, so everyone brought nice food(:
thanks all!
the first part was boring-ish.
everyone just sat and small talked.
and then em&i decided to hype up everyone, so we tried playing 7deadly sins.
and it faillllled. hahahaha,
but ruth&her partner got a really weird dare.
a bit X-rated.
hahaha it was to : pinch on of your um, womanly parts and honk three times.
HAHAAHAHAHA, obviously she didnt do that.
and then we played water balloons.
cherice damn super pro luh, she found my hose and,
well, you can imagine the rest.
:/ wet like anything.
my porch was way trashed after that.
then we played polar bear.
EMILY IS THE WORSTEST NARRATOR EVER!
hahahaha, and then the coaches arrived.
i challenged C-alvin to burnout revenge.
CHEATERSSS, C-remin distracted me by saying raeanne (YES SHE CAME! :D ) was destroying brandon's toys.
and i was liko OH! so i crashed, and coach won by like 2 secs.>:(
and SECOND ROUND, i so didnt get distracted and i won by like, 20SECS!
HA! coach was like: aiyah, cannot sleep tonight already.
HAHAHAA, everyone was laughing.
he promised to torture me on mon, but he didnt!:D
okay, skip a few days to.. monday
i baked brownie bottom cheeeeeeesecake
i soo the bomb, but sadly,
many people didnt get to try):
ANYWAY,
sarah stayed over on tuesday night.
and we talked till 3 am.
and the next morn (i think wed morn)
i was supposed to play tennis with BRINA(! havent seen him is AGESS!) at 10
and like i've been having sleeping problems, so i ASSUMED i would surely wake up at eight.
and i was like, okay, so no need to set alarm.
and when we woke up,
sarah picked up her phone, and she went: oh its 11.
AND I WAS LIKE OH FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFREAK!
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA
and i checked my phone!
TEN CALLS FROM BRINA, THREE FROM HIS HOME, and a message from hsiang yeh.
hahahahahahaha.
HAHAHAHAAHAA, so while super laughing my ass off, i called brina, and i was like:
SHIT IM SOOOOOO SORRY.
and he was laughing
and we were BOTH laughing.
hahahahahahahhahahahhaa.
im still laughing now.
hahahahaha. so yeahhhhhh, cancelled.
then i realized i was supposed to pass hsiangyeh cheesecake for him&karl.
AND OH, i was supposed to pass to him at,.eh, 11?
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAH,
once again, i laughed my ass off.
sarah joined the laughing.
hahaha, wellllll, so i had muchhhhhh extra cheeesecake.
(: (: (: (: (:
hahahaha.
OH, hahahahahh, im soooo sorry and i sound soooooooo politically incorrect,
but my optician's very sexy.
HAHA, yes, OPTICIAN.
dont give me that look >:(
hahahaha, he smiled at me! :D :D
there are only TWO things that can make me high instantly.
1) someone saying that my food is nice ( WITHOUT ME FORCING THEM TO COMMENT ON IT! some people are soooooooooooooooooooo guilty of that! >:( )
2) an OH-MY-GOD,HOT! guy, who smiles at me.
HAHA, okay im joking about the second part.
hahaha. the first part's no joke.
hahaha, well so far only 2 people have done that, (MAJOR BOOO!)
but its okay, im on my way(: (: (:
anddddddd, i watched TWILIGHT.
i tell you, jacob black's hotter than edward. DITTO THAT.
and like, carlise is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo goodlooking
hahaha, he's like WAY better than edward
im sooooooo sorry robert pat-smth, but the truth hurts ):
and yepp, watched bedtime stories.
hahahaha, sighhhhhhh, does life really have happy endings?
lol. lets wait and see.
(:
oh, let me tell the world:
i will marry the first guy who can cook a good mean & can bake & is as interested in food as i am, who isnt and doesnt look like a freako.
hahaha,
curtis stone, if you're seeing this, i dont mind marrying you(:
(: okay, joke.

yesssss, he is hottttttt.
anyway gotta go!

2008-12-15T02:07:00.000-08:00

hey you(:
today was a i-really-dont-wanna-wake-up-day.
hahah, my alarm rang at 6.30 but i switched it off.
then gang qiao, emily smsed me at 7, and THAT woke me up(:
hahah, thanks love.
then it was rainingggg, so i tuo-ed a bit, and got mum to fetch me to kallang:D
and i finally saw coach alvin after like 3 or 4 weeks?
hahaha. yepp, that man's still funny.
hahah, we were supposed to discuss pot luck, then i kinda digressed to how much i love edwardd!
:P :O <3
hahah, and he came and scared me from behind.
hahahh. training was nothing much,
just got taught how to hit harder and stuff,
like not play, but, like show.
so yeppp.
hahah, i got many people to eat my cookies for me:D
teehee. some liked it :DDDDDD
anyway, the end part of training was funny.
i told coach i was gonna play with rachel, and he made a funny comment.
i bet rachel secretly anshuang, and is just so super lying to me!
then when i was walking to the court,
i was tyding up my fringe.
and i saw this guy looking at me,
and he gave me the "sexy" eyebrow look (the one where you move your eyebrow up and down)
HAHA, i was like, whatttttttt?!
so i almost ran away,
and then i saw michelle(:
hahah, she grew prettier.
and she was really dressed up,
so i just joked whether she was gonna meet her bf,
and she was like, nooo..
but in the end, she WAS meeting a GUY.
HAHA, im smartttt:D
yepp, then played with rachel.
but i was super sucky cause i CANNOT run for nuts when the ground is wet.
hahah, and when i DID try to run,
i fell.
pffffffffffffft.
hahaha. if kelly were there, she would have laughed.
ate pepper lunch for the first time in agesssssss.
talked alot with rachel(: funnnn yo.
then went back, and since i was gonna pass kallang, i decided i wanted to play against the wall.
and oh, what a bad decision that was!
i met diane on the bus, and i totally didnt reconise her, cause she was wearing specs ><
so yepp, got off, booked and played abit.
then i realized that elite was gonna play in some court near to the wall.
and i was like, oooooh shite, embarassing.
thennnn, 15 mins after i played,
stef tan came into the court, next to mine.
whoaaaa, damn malu i tell you.
hahaha she was looking at how i played a bit,
but she lost interest after 1 sec.
pfffffffht. ><
MALUU! ):
haha, yeahhh, so played a bit, tried hitting my new style, not sure if i did it right though.
played for 45 mins, and my hand started hurting, so i stopped.
hahah, actually, i rested alot in between (playing against the wall is BORING and TIRING okay!)
hahah, then while i was playing, i hit alot of balls over, and the guy over there had to hit them back for me :$
paiseah.
and i realized i couldnt find one of my balls.
so i went over.
and i realized the guy was kinda good looking ( hahaha, i thought he was an ahbeng at first:D )
yeahhhh, then felt really embarassed, cause i was interrupting his "game"
i think he played for damn long alr luh
like, he was there BEFORE i started, and was STILL there AFTER i left.
not bad seh.
hahah, then when i walked back, he hit ANOTHER ball over, then we both kinda laughed.
hahah, then got his ball, and went to watch the elite people play.
whoaaaaa. suuuuper pro can!
hahhah.
anyway, i want to upload a vid, from youtube, anyone knows how to do it? :D
heh. lovvvve River Flows In You by Yiruma!
it's Bella's Lullaby.
its soooo good!
hahahha.
anyway, emily asked who it is i like.
hahah its no one lah!
just some person i thought was hot.
but im overr it!
(:
gonna goo noww!
oh, the lies that i tell

2008-12-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

i did something reeeeeally shitty today:/
i was shopping for groceries ( OMGZZ FAVOURITE THING TO DO (: )
and i wanted to get dark chocolate, for baking.
and mum said she was coming soon already, so she asked me to hurry.
and i panicked cause i couldnt find the dark BAKING chocolate,
so i rannn to the chocolates section, and tried to get the cadbury one.
and i was like OH SHIT, cause i left my bag WIDE open with my phone on it.
and when i came back, there was this small crowd of people staring at my phone,
and this super loveeeeely NTUC man was there "looking after" my bag!
OMG! i felt so super bad! ):
shiteee.
anyway, im gonna bake some nice cookies noww(:
wish me luck(:

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS - MARIAH CAREY

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby (repeat and fade)

heard this on simin's blog.
(:

miss YOU muchhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2008-12-12T20:42:00.000-08:00

hey you(: im such a looser.
blogging when im supposed to meet andeline in an hour and 15mins
shit
:$
anywayy. i just finished training.
training was reeeeeeeally nice today. cause i made a new friend(:
okay, shes tricia, not exactly new friend, but we got closer-ish(:
hahah, i havent told her who i liked yet, but hopefully she'll forget:D
AND SMART ME! i was RIGHT all along about who she liked!
heeeeee!
super cool luhh.
hassan says im an ahlian!
BLAUGG#%##$
hahahaha, box him larghghghh!
that crazy old man!
always asking me whether i have cookies!(:
andddd,
HE talked to me today(((:
hahaha, okay, not the one i like, but..
hahaha, okay, keep that part secret.
it was so funny!
when i was walking past his court,
i called for my cousin.
my cousin's name is nicholas.
so i was like, NICK NICK, are we going for lunch?
hahaha, AND HE TURNED!
hahahahaha, so i guess his name is nicholas too?
teeeheee. made me laugh a lot(:
coach dave says im so fierce! ):
pooot lah!
hahah, then he wrapped my towel around my head, and said i looked more feminine.
phhhhhhht.
tricia saw, laughed and said i looked like an elf ><
hahahaahah, lovely people.
and on the way out, HE said: hey, why no cookies today(he soooo copied hassan!)
and irritatingly, he was the one who said that by eating my cookies, one would get high blood pressure, diabetes, heart attack and die.
pffffffft.
tricia asked if he was trying to flirt.
but by looking at what he said about my cookies,
i think not?
@!@$#%@$$
(what die lah!)
hahaha, anyway, i think i'd better go bathe.
edited!

i think i should blog at night, then i can get EVERYTHING typed out
haha, anyway, met miss andeline!
hahahah. so rubbish lah her!
we FAILED at studyingggggggg
and she was being rubbish!
I BOUGHT MY NEW MASCARA! :O
happy like no one's business, cause i've been wanting a new one for ages.
hahah. andeline is super funny. she tried like a thousand foundations and her whole hand turned whitish.
OMG. and when she washed her hand, the water became MILK!
:O
hahahahaha. then we went to the toilet to try the mascara.
and she tried, and she laughed, and she ATTEMPTED cleaning it off.
BLOODY FUNNY I TELL YOU!
hahahaha. lovelys largh her.
feeling sleepy, but its only 10.
pfffht. maybe im jetlagging!
HAHA.
gonna go now(:

2008-12-11T02:23:00.000-08:00

HAHA got my phone cable! (: so i'm finally able to picturize my bloggg(:
HAHA, happpy(:
and like OMG, i havent posted pictures since october! :O
super long ago! D:
anyway, here are ALL the super overdue picturess!
enjoyyyy <3>
this was like, before the exams. i was self training against the wall, and i just saw simin(:
national dayyy(: look at the preetaye girls beside me. wanna meet them? ;D

minnnn(:

when i was young(: admit it, you think i was cute!(:

HAHA, BABY

cookies with sarah. they ONLY LOOKED nice! D:

birthday cake that daddy bought for me. (: the FIRST one he bought for me<3

my signature MINI brownies! (: I BET ISSAC LOVED THOES!

outing with sarah. sadly, i dont have many of the pictures we took ( all with herrr ): )
birthday present from rahhh(: that lovely woooman!

strawberries for my jamm(:

jam making (JAMIE OLIVER WAY! OMGZ I LOVE JAMIEE! )

mashing jamm(:

RAINBOW! so pretty(:

HAHA, sorry, zilian@genting. the guy gave us a MONSTER candy floss! hahah. ate till we died!
flo&bro. teehee, that rhymed!

he camwhores with me, lovelyy(:

<3>
:O

candiddd!

momma(:

coach darryls balls are THE BOMB! freaking cute lah!

momma's so cute(:

if you didnt know, thats called fish face(:

:D

the cute clownies(:

im gonnn a bowllll!

HAHA, ZILIAN! thats what happens when you have no camwhore partners! D:

lalala(:

cause you make me love you(:

(:

momma and brandon(:

SCONES! they were a TAD dryy.

omgz damn cute right? (:

haha, i look weird in this picture, and emily loooks prreeeeetty.
hahaha(: elmo's cuter eh?(:

BINTAN! (: thats the pool lah, not the sea(: hee.

souvenirs (: TADAH!

i accidentally hurted it. shit :/

thats how i look, when i think of you.

beach(: the waters were goooody(:

(:

well thats about all i want to post(:
hahaha, the rest are with others
yeeeeep. im kinda looking forward to tomorrow's traininggg(:
i havent played in a WEEK. again.
hahah gonna have to press the restart button on my skills again. :/ phfffffffff.
yeeeep.
okay, i know my small print ISNT very small.
but read it if you wanna(:

So I say it in a breath
Hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
All the seas go coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again my love
I tried to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop
To keep myself from thinking

2008-12-07T20:05:00.000-08:00

random song i love
without you - mariah carey

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

you fking screwed it up girl.
when youre chasing butterfly dreams

2008-12-07T16:00:00.000-08:00

okay, some ones guess what time it is now.
it 8 oclock in the morning.
what the lousyness man!
hahaha.
sarah slept over,
and she insisted on waking up at 7-.-
so yeahhhhhhh, she just left.
yesterday was a funnnny day(:
i WAS supposed to STUDY with caroline.
so i decided to go to the airport to surprise kelly.
(and then study after! :D)
so i went to check the arrivals.
i THOUGHT she was coming from melbourne,
so i SEARCHED up and down for a flight from melbourne.
but there were only flights from sydney or perth!
the one from perth was landing at 1230,
and 1.05 for the one from sydney.
so i decided to go to check out the perth one first.
so waited there, and line joined me after a while(:
wait wait wait,
while waiting for someone who looked SOMETHING like a kelly khoo,
we saw some hot angmoh guys.
then line said: the one in the blue shirt quite hot eh?
and i looked and saw
an uncle
:O
line has weeeeeeeeeird taste!
hahahah.
then we realized kelly was NOT coming from perth,
and so we RAN over to t2 cause the flight landed 10 minutes ago.
then we saw SOMEONE who looked SOMEWHAT like kelly.
but then we were like,
50% might be, 50%might NOT be.
so we waited,
like beside her relatives.
for like 40 mins cause the kelly look alike kinda didnt want to move.
><
-------------------------------
eh shit lah!
my post got like, halved.
shitshit,
anyway main highlights:
-studied (for barely 30 mins) with line, had FUN with line and rah
-baked lovely stuff with lovely sarah, and she slept over(:
-wanted to call amanda( from cedar) to play tennis, but called the PRO amanda by accident ):
-called rached to play tennis BEFORE calling amanda, but she didnt pick up, but still playing with her and hsiang yeh tomorrow.
-going off to bintan tomorrow, so playing much tennis today, so i wont suck on friday.

yeah, kinda shitty post, but im not gonna RETYPE half my post.
yeppp.
playing with rachel at 10 and amanda,larissa and maybe kai li at 5.
i bet rachel and hsiang yeh are STILL SLEEPING (its 8 40 now! ) and were so gonna have to play at 12.
phfffffffff.
hahahaha, shall go now! (: bye!

2008-12-06T02:58:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA
okay im bloody happy now, cause i did something reeeeeally random.
and yeeeeah.
hahaha.
i was reading rah's blog, then i commented on her weirdo comment thingy.
then i saw this link thing, and it turned out to be someone's blog.
and i just scrolled and read this post,
which was superrrrrrrr cool.
hahahaha. yeeep.
and it turned out to be clarissa's blog. (no idea how to spell her name >< ) (:
anyway, i would really love to post ALL my photos
but sadly, my phone cable's still MIA-ing and SARAH LEONG HAS MANY PICTURES OF OUR PRETTAYE FACES!
(okay, only mines pretty lah! HAHA! ;D )
and they're locked up in her camera! ): ):
heehee. anyway, i want to play tennis on mondayy!
but EVERYONE'S busy! damn kenasai. SAERIOUSLY YO.
gonna miss sooo many trainings):
anyway, friday's training was interesting much. daddy fetched me to st wilfred's ( YAY)
and then 5 mins into training, i realized that NYJC was gonna play with us.
that made me reeeally happy ( really sorry coach, but trainings reeally kinda boring :/ )
friendlies=NO playing crosscourt across TWO BLOODY courts (believe me, its really tiring)
and also = sitting around and laughing alot more(:
HAHA okay, so slacker, but im starting to love the TEAM :O
anyway, im so proud of myself,
cause i know the people-who-i-played-against-names!
emoooly and i played uh, alvin&aaron for the first match.
okayyyy, we lost 4-3 (7-5) ):
but i kinda convinced myself it wasnt too bad cause i hadnt touched a ball, or balls, in a week!(:
then we played uh, i think theeha(or smth)&ummmm.
HAHA, okay i cant remember. BUT we won 5-1 (:
okay, so happy. then we played karl and um, aaron(i theeeeeenk)
it was kinda 3-1 when we ended. so waited for ness.
shhhhh about this okay, but secretly i think ness and aaron make a good match
(DONT ASK WHY) hahahaha.
i think she'd kill and skin me alive if she saw that. but they DO look KINDA cute IF they were together :D
and emily said something REALLLY disturbing, like twice.
HAHA, damn tempted to type it here.
okay, i shall type 50% of what she said!
"why _______ not _____?" HAHA.
:D
after training, walked out ALONE
sadly, no one lives in the east area except me (singyi was MIA-ing ): )
met rah, and we talked about REALLY important things!(:
hahahaha.
to rah: you silly billy woooman! hahahaha. stop physcoing yourself dummy things! hahahaha.
you're the best man. LOL(:
yupp. shall post the pictures when I GET THEM (stares at rah)
meeting line tomorrow! CANT WAIT!
i've missed that wooooman(:
anyway, STILL LOOKING FOR MY TENNIS PARTNER!
and i asked kelly to play with me,
and i told her if she doesnt, i'd only have ONE option left.
and SHE PURPOSELY doesnt wanna play because of that.
#$@#$!
yeeeeeap.
thats all. shall go now!

2008-12-03T18:30:00.000-08:00

okay, im kinda getting pissed off here cause i cant find my phone cable,
so my blogs gonna have to remain picture-less.
again.
anyyway,
got back from malaysia yesterday(:
(:
anyway,
mum's such a funny retaarrd.
hahaha. heres some of our conversations:

(approx 1.5 weeks before we left)
mum: girl, can we go off to malaysia on saturday?
me: ummm, the tournament may not be over yet, so can you push it to sunday?
mum: well, the only bus with seats left is on sat.
me: so i dont really have a choice?
mum: ummm, guess so.
me: so why did you ask me?
mum: umm, dont know.
-.-
major -.-.
hahah.
heres another one:

mum: you know, the price for going bintan and malaysia is about the price of going taiwan.
me(and my brother)(whine): SO WHY CANT WE GO TAIWAN! we've been to malaysia only about 10000 times!
mum: well, because its rainy there. and you dont want to carry an umbrella around, do you?
me: but, ummm, its rainy in batam too?
mum: oh... yeah.(then she says some other thing i cant remember)
(rainy batam's worse than rainy taiwan, cause batam=sun&beach. rain=no point -.-)

hahahha, shes like, funny&retarder than me luh!
hahahah. so who ever said i was retarded, or crazy for that matter, you know why now.. :D

anywayyyy.
back to talking about my trip.
haha, kuala lumpur(is that spelt right?) was ummm.
cool?
we watched a reeeeeeally cool break dance competition.
kinda funny cause there was this group,
that had better looking guys (as compared to the rest) and though they were good,
they lost.
and this WHOLE group of teenage malay girls,
shouted, and i really mean SHOUTED AHWWWWWWWWW when they lost.
hahahhahaah. damn cute.
thenn, we went for some indoor themepark thingy.
brandon was all like: oh my gosh, im soooooo excited im jumping off walls!
-.-
then we went for some roller coaster ride(:
its was cool, cause it was reeeeeally long.
hahaha. and bran was like: sis, if i cry, would you kill me? (he's an 11 year old for goodness sake!)
luckily he didnt cry.
then we went for this DNA mixer ride.
oh my gilly goooooooooodness!
it was like some kind of turn-you-upside-down-ALOT-ride.
and i was cool with it at first.
then halfway through the ride, brandon's face turned greeeeeeen.
and i was like OHMMY, YOU BETTER DONT PUKE AH!
and he started sweating.
ALOT.
the guy beside us had the oh-shit-why-did-i-choose-to-sit-beside-him face.
and it cracked me up.
hahahaa.
yeeeah, bran was fine after eating some sweet corn with like a truckload of butter on top><
then i decided i needed to pee.
so i went to the toilet.
and there was this cleaning attendant inside, like sitting down.
i kinda smiled to her and wondered: why sit here? the toilet was practically empty.
then while i was in the cubicle,
i heard: bleeeeeahhhhhhhhhhhhh bleahhhhhhhhhhhhh BLEEEEEEEEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
okay, so i get why she sits in there the whole time.
she must have a hard time cleaning up all the merlion mess.
sadly, after i walked out, with the bleah-ing ringing loudly in my head,
i started to feel sick too.
BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
so i just sat while bran went for some major viking ship that goes 360 degrees thing.
he kept buggering me to sit with him,
but i told him, if i did,
he would see a my noodles flying about.
so he laughed and decided to brave the ride himself:D
then genting:
oooakay, nothing much.
watched some chinese movie for like sing $5.
wth!
i sat bedside this guy that reminded me of someone.
hahahah. shhhhhhh about who that person it :D
and i think he get reeeeeeeeally irritated with me cause i was making quite, okay, fine, MANY oh shits,
and other im-scared noises.
BUT, he was irritating too.
he sat with his legs WIDE open, so i had no space.
and he put his fat(okay, he wasnt fat, im just irritated:/) arm on my armrest.
so i was kinda in a very uncomfortable position.
i'd really felt like kicking him THERE so he would close his bloody long legs.
>:(
hahaha.
then theme park.
it was okay luh.
sat two rides or something
and i saw this greeen haired clown making balloons.
so i went up to him.
but he kinda ignored me cause i was so oldddd (his "customers" only knew two words:balloon and pink)
the he noticed bran.
and he said this:(in chinese)
that girls your mum?
I WAS LIKE @!#%#@%*#@%*@#$!#&%$!^%&@%@#!&#%#@%#@&%#@%#
MUM!
MUM?!
DO I LOOK THAT OLD TO YOU?!
i dont think so!
$#$#$%@#$#$#^%$^$#
then the guy asked bran.
where are you from?
and we were like, oh singapore?
the clown person said: oh, youre in primary school right?
bran was like, yeah, nee ann.
and clown person said: do you know chen lao shi?
and bran was like which one?
and so the convo continues (kinda pointlessly cause bran has 5 chen lao shis)
and i finally got a flower from him.
then i walked around and saw this reeeeeally cute bear balloon.
and i decided to risk my face and go up to him.
i asked him to make a bear for me ( i asked REEEALLY nicely)
he was like, no, you have a flower already.
i made a sad face,
then he said:
okay, actually i dont know how to make a bear. (-.-)
so i asked which other clown knew how to make a bear.
he poined to some other guy.
and i went up to clown 2 and asked for a bear.
C2 said he was out of balloons.
(okay, then somehow i finally got the clown to make a bear. no point typing out the whole thing)
hahah, then C1 decided to do a magic trick.
and C2 totally messed it up.
which was freaaaaking funny.
and C1 was like: $#@$@$!
hahahhahahah.
and C2 was like: i go singapore and find you okay?
i was like, uh, no?
and he threatened to take the bear away.
but in the end i still said no,
and i still got my bear(:
i took a picture with them
when i get my cable ill post it(:
yupp.
okay i WAS supposed to meet emooole at 12.30 but i kinda lost track of time and she kinda knew,
so ill have to rushhhhh(:
hahaha, she said something DUMB when she picked up the phone.
louseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
andd,
sarahhh!!!!
i totallyyyyyy miss you muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
hahahahahaha. tell me all about your ----------------------
hahahaha, i hope you seee this yo!
i. need. to. stay. out. late. with. you.
we'll discuss ------------------
hahahahaha
lovely woooman.
why must you go beijing?!
): ):

okay, this had beeen such a luosuo post.
hope you dont blame me for being borring!
D: D:

its finally gotten to the point
i can reminisce with out the pain.

and you'd say:
theres nothing more to this, than what there already is.

2008-11-28T06:50:00.000-08:00

hahaha,
yeeeah, was gonna start posting about 2 hours ago,
but i was lazy.
hahah.
going off tomorrow!(:
nothing much luh.
well, played diane low today.
6-2 6-1 down
not toooo bad right?
hahahaha.
anyway, she nice(:
hahaha,
ISSAC, if by any chance you are reading this,
you BETTER watch out.
hahahaha
huiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuiminhuimin
:P
nehneh.
lousy koyak guy.
hahaha, thanks for the "dont jump" though.
lol(:
anyway,
came back and went to playground with brother.
hahaha.
i told him about____
IRRITATING LAH HIM.
he kept laughing at me.
stewwwwwwwwpid ><
hahaha.
yeeah.
was surfing profiles just now.
i realize some people arent that pretty after all,
or pretty people may not have sexy boyfriends.
shall go noww!
bye

2008-11-27T06:59:00.000-08:00

hey you,
played 14th seed today.
surprisingly, i won 6-3 6-1
my first few games were really louzeee.
i made like shitloads of unforced errors.
but i picked myself up and played better(:
playing diane low tomorrow.
oh btw,
emily and i both agree that nicole rosenburger's bro is hot.
hahaha, hope she really really really doesnt see that.
yepppp.
anyway, hope you like the quiz below, its cool yo!:D

1. You are walking to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path which takes you there quickly, but is very plain and boring. The other is curvy and full of wonderful sights on the way, but takes quite a while to reach your loved one's house.

The roads represent your attitude towards falling in love. If you chose the short one, you fall in love quickly and easily. If you chose the long one, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.

2. On the way, you see two rose bushes. One is full of white roses. One is full of red roses. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boyfriend/girlfriend.
What color combination do you choose?

The number of red roses represent how much you expect to give in a relationship. The number of white roses represent how much you expect in a relationship. Therefore, if a person chose all red with one white, he/she gives 90% in the relationship but expects to receive only 10% back.

3. You finally get to your boyfriend/girlfriend's house. You ring the bell and the maid answers. You can ask the maid to please get your loved one, or you may go get them yourself.
Which action do you take? Ask the maid or do it yourself?

This question shows your attitude in handling relationship problems. If you asked the maid to get your loved one, then you may beat around the bush, maybe asking a third party to intervene. Avoidance of problems runs high.
If you went and got your loved one yourself, then you are pretty direct. If there is a problem, you confront it and deal with it. You want to work it out right away.

4. Now, you go up to your girlfriend/boyfriends room. No one is there. You can leave the roses by the window sill, or on the bed. Where do you put the roses? Bed or window?

The placement of the roses indicates how often you'd like to see your boyfriend/girlfriend. Placing the roses on the bed means you need lots of reassurance in the relationship, and you'd want to see your loved one every day, if possible. Placing the roses by the window show that you don't expect or need to see your loved one too often.

5. Later, its time for bed. You and your loved one go to sleep, in separate rooms. You wake up in the morning, and go to your boyfriend/girlfriend's room to check up on him/her. You enter the room:Is he/she awake or sleeping?

Finding your boyfriend/ girlfriend asleep: You accept your loved one the way they are. Finding them awake: You expect him/her to change for you.

6. It's time to go home now, and you start to head back. You can take either road home now: The plain, boring one that gets you home fast; or the curvy, sight-filled road that you can just casually take your time with. Which road do you choose? Short or long?

The short and long roads now represent how long you stay in love. If you chose the short one, you fall out of love easily.
If you chose the long one, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

yepp. hope you enjoyed that:D
tell me your results if you have a chance to okay?:D

so now BOTH of us know how it feels,
to have sleepless nights,
cause they're running through our dreams.
see you soon babe, im gonna miss you muchhh(:

2008-11-26T06:42:00.000-08:00

hey yo.
umm, slacked around pretty much the whole day.
i caught the macaroon bug again, so i decided to bake a batch.
yeeeeeeeah,
well, umm
hahaha, finally got to use my candy thermometer(:
kinda dumb luh.
i needed 150g of almost meal.
and like, i could only find 100 grams packs.
which were already like $4 plus dollars.
so after walking arounf cold storage a few times
(and secretly cussing A LOT in my head)
i finally decided to 2/3 all the other ingredients
which kinda sucks, cause i'd already added the water and sugar together,
and like,you cant 2/3 like, egg whites man.
so i kinda like, whateverrred and chucked it all in.
hahaha.
okay, such sloppy behavior cannot be condoned,
i know.
and after that, things just got WORSE.
okay, imagine this. you've got to heat a sticky sloppy mess to 110deg,
and keep it there.
on the other hand, you've got to use a hand mixer and beat egg whites, without stopping.
AND you've also got to sieve clumpy ground almond+icing sugar,
which just stubbornly just doesnt wanna go through the holes.
so yeah, you get the big picture.
so after fumbling much, i just whatevered,
cussed A LOT in my head,
and piped ugly circles.
left it in the oven and make lunch.
lunch was weird, cause i didnt know it was minced PORK.
so i cooked, and my maid was like, uhhh?
hahahah.
WHOOPS,
so heated up sardines for her:D.
yeahhhh,
the minced-pork-with-potatoes-that-got-kinda-mashed-with-teriyaki-watery-sauce
was,
well.
okay lah.
it was nicely edible, but i HATE pork.
cause it has lumpy fatty like things in it.
okay, skip to open oven moment...
well, they HAD TEEEEEEENY feet.
(feet: the frilly things at the bottom of macaroons that are like, the SUPA important features)
and,
they were easily removeable.
so KINDA A LITTLE successful.
yeeeah,
so im just gonna stick to using the italian way, although i feel the meringue-stage wasnt really pretty.
so yeeeeah,
shall try again when i learn how to fold.
okay, i think my post's getting too technical.
:O
anyway,
skip to match.
okay luh,
nothing much to report.
other than:
emily you sexy woman.
cheeeer up.
everyone has their "im-making-mistakes-but-im-still-sexy-days"
so dont give up.
who gives a damn what happens today?
it was JUST a practice for us, to learn to be sexier.
so chill, you didnt disappoint me:D
really.
come on girl,
hope to see you tomorrow.
just try, and we'll see how it goes yeah?
love you loadssss!
stay happy and sexy lovely!:D
(NOTE: im so not a lesbian :O )
okay, i dont know why i put that.
i guess it just hoping that you'll read it on the off chance.
:)
anywayy,
some cool quiz results:

my dream guy:
Although he's normally pretty quiet, and not the hottest guy ever, he's so sweet. He always asks what you want to do and goes along with it. He never complains about how you spend more time with your friends, cos he likes hanging with them too. He's about an inch taller than you, and has short brown hair, with green/blue eyes. He will ring you every night before you go to sleep just to let yu know he still cares. Aww. =]
(skip the height thing. he would be WAY too short. 158 for a guy...?)
(chinese have blue/green eyes?)

how (supposedly) sexy am i?
Seductive Sexy
You've got all the right moves without going over the top. Intimacy is a fun and enjoyable experience for you, so you don't need to force it, and you don't worry about expressing yourself too openly. You are confident about yourself and your sexuality and there is nothing sexier than a girl who is comfortable with who she is.

what my lipstick says about me:
Hopeless Romantic
Ah, l'amour. Whether you're in a relationship or still looking for the love of your life, it's those stomach-friendly butterflies that you're searching for. A romantic at heart, you tend to see the best in people and always look for common ground.
So when it comes to your lips, it's no surprise that you love to look your best — and most kissable. Whether you go for sweet pinks or sexy reds, it's that flirty smile underneath that you're looking to show off. Come hither, indeed!

yeeeah,
ive decided something.
im going to train really hard for the remaining days,
cause i owe it to myself to be the best i can be.
so looking for tennis ( and study) buddys(:
gotta go now.

baby, with you running through my mind every night,
i'd doubt i'd be getting much sleep.
(and that my eyebag removal cream's gonna work)
:/

2008-11-25T06:25:00.000-08:00

hey you.
here's an update on my life, if you do read(:
anyway,
today was doubles with emily.
yeppp,
won 6-3 6-4
happy we won, but sadly it was the lousiest round one score.
anywayy.
match against khee yen and danielle tomorrow.
(yikes!)
shall try our bestest(:
anyway.
singles on thurs.
leaving for genting on sat, back on tues.
leaving again on 7th if im not wronggg.
yepppp.
anyway, looking for a study buddy.
tell me if you wanna stuudy with me(:
hahaha.
wish me luck tomorrow!

why, oh why, do i feel this way?
tell me that,
everything'll turn out okay...

2008-11-22T06:38:00.000-08:00

this, is, way, cool(:
took some quiz.
here's the results:
i:
fall in love quickly and easily.
am pretty direct. If there is a problem, you confront it and deal with it. You want to work it out right away.
need lots of reassurance in the relationship, and you'd want to see your loved one every day, if possible.
accept your loved one the way they are.
tend to stay in love for a long time.

not bad, quite true(:

thenn..

You are very appealing to a man and have great inner beauty and strength as well as physical attractiveness. You take pride in your appearance and like a man who appreciates it! You like being accepted as a person rather than a sex symbol and you like a man who is intelligent as well as good looking.

(HOPEFULL THIS IS TRUE! HAHA! (: )

Libra
You like helping friends by giving them good and practical advice but you find difficulty helping them with emotional matters. This does not mean that you have a cold sign just that you are often detached. Libra is excellent company and has finesse and grace.

If you are a monkey: Very impatient and hyper! You want things to be done as quickly as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. In this way, you are unique. You like having a sense of security. Should your name be featured in any sort of a controversy, you may start to panic. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!

( haha, whooops! )

Libra
You have difficulty making decisions when it comes to personal matters. You like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument - but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. You also like to expend energy on people who may not deserve it - You want to help the underdog. You are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally.

Advice: Follow your instincts and act on them. Don't blindly trust people, learn to be a little more discriminating in your offers of help. Learn to think for yourself and don't be swayed by persuasive tongues.

4 The conservative
4's are sensible and traditional. They like order and routine. They only act when they fully understand what they are expected to do. They like getting their hands dirty and working hard. They are attracted to the outdoors and feel an affinity with nature. They are prepared to wait and can be stubborn and persistent. They should learn to be more flexible and to be nice to themselves.

Famous 4's: Neil Diamond, Margaret Thatcher, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Tina Turner, Paul Hogan, Oprah Winfrey

( :O!)

Rowan tree: (the sensitivity) - full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
( once again, :O!)

okay, gotta go!

2008-11-20T04:29:00.000-08:00

okay, i know im post spamming,
but i had to get this out before i changed my mind.
this is gonna be difficult... :O
anyway,
to ___
im not gonna say who you are, cause i reckon you wouldnt like that.
(:
i havent seen you in a little while,
and it would be lying to say i didnt miss you.
): (say ahw)
anyway, even though we're not really close, i feel like we shared much in common.
you should understand(:
and i know, you might be fine,
and im gonna look stupid typing this,
but well, its cause i care(:
i can say, we all care,
and we miss you much.
so im hoping to see you soon(:
i know you probably wouldnt read this,
but on the off chance you do,
i hope you'll come talk to me:D
we havent spoken for a while,
and im not gonna continue bugging you with smses :]
so yeppp,
that all i reckon i can say before it sounds weird D:
i hope ill see you soooooon.
love you much much much(:
remember bella and edward!
hope ill be able to see that with you(:

theres only one way, two say, three words, four you'
i love you(:

2008-11-20T01:54:00.000-08:00

im blogging cause atikah says my blog is really dead.
hahha
i shall prove to her its not so!
(:
but what to blog about?
i only have one thing on my mind.
but thats, well,
hahahahaha.
:]
but its not like that person will read my blog,
so its okay,
right?
hahaha.
hmmmmm(:
anyway, this is really cute(:

50 CHARACTERISTICS A GUY SHOULD HAVE TO BE LIKE EDWARD
1. be inhumanly attractive
2. drive 200 km/h
3. save you from death
4. have an amazing body
5. be incredibly wealthy
6. be too much of a gentleman
7. have an elegant way of walking
8. be inhumanly strong
9. crooked smile
10. have an extended and sophisticaded vocabulary
11. be really smart
12. good taste in music
13. smell extraordinarily nice
14. suddenly appear out of nowhere and kiss you
passionately
15.to tell you that you ARE beautiful, not that you look beautiful
16. to be able to enter to your room without anyone
noticing
17. be willing to sacrifice his life to save yours
18. have eyes only for you even if he is sorrounded by
hot girls
19. be able to read minds except yours.
20. quote romeo (william shakespeare)
21. stand in front of you in a protective way when you
are in danger
22. give you his jacket when you are cold
23. to stay young, gorgeous, and sexy forever
24. have morals
25. love you for what you are inside, not for how you look
26. be charming
27. be jealous of your guy friends (jacob, mike, etc...)
28. sparkle in the sunlight
29. write you a song
30. wait for the ideal girl to come along
31. be a virgin!
32. whisper nice things to your ear
33. be able to make you beautiful and inmortal
34. tell you that the outside world holds no interest for
him without you
35. be comprehensive
36. have a nice family
37. play the piano
38. kiss you in the middle of a fight
39.always pay everything
40. hug you behind your back
41. have been pretty much single since 1901
42. hold your face while he kisses you
43. do not sleep at night, stay by your side taking care of you
44. speak no lies
45. have a good taste in clothes
46. have beautiful and expresive eyes
47. own amazing cars
48. be able to carry you with no effort
49. tell you that you are the closest to heaven that he
will ever get
50. be willing to spend eternity by your side

yeah, okay.
im gonna look blog obsessed if i say anymore,:O
hahaha,
so yepp.
GO LISTEN TO 1234 by plain white tees.
nice song(:

2008-11-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

(:
i shall try to revive my blog.

yeppp.
hahaha, okay why am i posting cheesy songs?
well, i was with sher today,
and we had fun!
hhahaha,
and we heard these wonderful corny songs!
it was from the movie music and lyrics! (:
hahahaha.
okayyyy.
lets talk about this week!
(:
monday-
ny came to play with us.
yepppp.
played doubles with lovelylovelylovelylovely.
im proud to be her PARTNER!
emilys the BEST!
(:
yeppppp.
okay, played against pink ( NOT PURPLE) guy and white shirt guy.
hahaha okay, i really dont know their names.
but our match was funny.
ALL MATCHES are funny
hahaha.
emily whacked the guys in the head.
not once, BUT TWICE!
HOHO!
maybe theres something more here!
hahaha. ;)
yeppppp.
went for lunchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
with tess abi ruth crys and emil!
hahahah.
the ny guys were stalking us!
hahaha, not actually, but,
they ended up at the same place as us.
so yeppp.
i had a bad stomach.
"shared" yong tau foo with tessa.
hahaha.
went back for more sooooooooooooooup!
(:
then i had my ummmm,
bad-msg-overconsumption-symptoms.
yucky.
hahah,
yepppppp.
went to play with hsiang yeh and rachel( i think shes pretty! (: ) ( no im not les -.-)
whoalao.
i think the whole world loves to take advantage of my height.
hahaha.
AHWELL!
im STILL A GROWING GIRL!
(:
um, went back.
yeppp.

tues-
nothing much largh.
felt sick.):

today!
hahaha.
unexpectedly ny girls came to play with us!
(:
mmmmmmm
played against brown and black shirt girl.
okay, dont really feel like rambling on.
hahha,
funny things today:

atikah and i agree that:
i need a fat boyfriend who can hug me to keep me warm!

i walked into the MALE toilet BY ACCIDENT
bloody embarassing!
:O
(sher laughs at me uncontrollably here)

someone commented about my
i-need-a-fat-boyfriend-who-can-hug-me-to-keep-me-warm
in a really weird way.
so i started sceaming and called emily.
hahaaha.
okayokay.
no more elaborations on that.

hahaha,
thats all i guess.
shall continue and cut and paste lovely lyrics... (:

I said I wasn’t gonna lose my head
But then pop! Goes my heart
(Pop! Goes my heart)
I wasn’t gonna fall in love again
But then pop! Goes my heart
(Pop! Goes my heart)
And I just can’t let you go
I can’t lose this feeling

(pop goes my heart)

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

(way back into love)
Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting, for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress
It’s a love story, baby just say…yes…
Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…
We were both young when I first saw you.
(love story)

Lets go back lets rewind to the days that remind me
of all the good times that we spent together
And I don't know why we just let it all slide
When we both knew inside we were right for each other
(everything i knew)

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever will be
You and me.
(check yes juliet , OBVIOUSSSLY!)

im more or less done! (:
hahaha, yepppp.
hope people actually will read this!(:

I wasn’t gonna fall in love again
But then pop! Goes my heart
(Pop! Goes my heart)
And I just can’t let you go
I can’t lose this feeling

2008-11-14T22:17:00.000-08:00

fastpostfastpost!
okay,
ummmmmmmmm.
lets see what i want to say!

to andeline: MISSUS! i loved our shopping trip.
LOVE the killer heels and your lovely shoess!
hahaha lets shop (AND ATTEMPT studing again) some time,
WITH SARAH ALONG! (HOPE YOU SEE THIS MISSUS!)

sarah:
lovely woman! i miss you alot.
you pangsehed me and andeline!
shallnt forgive you for that!
you owe both of us a full day shopping trip babeh!

sherilyn:
hahahah,
you said you missed me!
i cant believe it!
hahah i shall remember that for a long long time dear!
anyway,
im looking forward to our studeeeeee date!
lol:D
btw, i miss you alot too! <3

emily baby! (hope you see thiss!)
love you loads yeah,
matches coming,
were so gonna win babeh!

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i wish i could escape all this.
i wish you would grow up,
stop making us worry.
baby,
stop the noise,
stop the pain.
is there no way to make this better?

time passes.
does pain lessen with time?

2008-10-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

to simin:
i dont like you! ):

jiayee:
missed you babeh,
gonna bake with you sometime (after 5th nov)
:D heh

sisssssss:
hahahaha, i dont want to study cheeena anymore.
its a brain drainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ):
and it makes me really sad

quick post!

lets see my results (eoys only)

maths b3 (half a lousy mark to a2 ,#%#$%#%$^#$%$#%@&#)
amaths a1
physics a1
biology a1
chemistry a1
english a1
ss/geog b4 ):

and last AND the least,
bloody HIGHER chinese,
a bloody E8
omg lah!
haahhahaah.

sadly,
even though eoys are OFFICIALLY over(longgg time ago)
but 90% of the sec 3s are still mugging.
what kind of lousyness is that?!
hahahah,
ahwell.

thoughts:
are we okay now?
will it ever be the same again, love?

i miss you.
do you, miss me too?
or have already forgotten me?

and even if i fail,
who can say i didnt try?

im glad youre back,
well and all.

why cant you just be nice?
do you HAVE to keep at being an asshole?
do you have to continue to act like this?
are you STILL pissed at what took place so long ago?
must i explain myself to you before you will understand?

laoshi makes me really sad
she keeps telling me:
(okay i couldnt type chinese. so i translated)
florence, i know you've worked hard this year.
but after teaching you for 2 years,
frankly ( wo tan bai di gen ni shuo)
your standard still isnt there.
even if youre lucky, you'll only get a c6.

okay, i get it.
so im lousy at chinese.
and no, im not really angry with her.
but i almost cried the first time she said that.
hahaha, ahwell.

oh by the way let me bitch.
i edited the bitching part,
decided not to insult or offend anyone.

send me songs please!

ps: thanks jiayee for the lovely book. i tried one of the cupcakes,
it was superrrrrr (:

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

my paper heart - all american rejects (thanks to amanda for the songs! :D )
Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I'm around you

So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
a year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
Now a year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

(Fa Fa Fa la la la Fa Fa Fa la la la Fa Fa Fa La La La)

Summertime, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

Summertime, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you...
To me

2008-10-07T07:13:00.000-07:00

sigh.
two hours till im fifteen.
is that a good thing?
):
okay, maybe im just sad cause its exams results day tomorrow?
or maybe not?

EDITED!
ahahaha.
okay im not sad anymoreeeeeeeeeee
WHEEEEEEe
i love sisssssssssssssssssssssssssss
hahahhaha.
(no, i dont look like a frog ): )
hahaha
I WANT SONGS!
someone supply me with songs!
hahahaha.
i would like avenged and underclass hero!
hahahaha.
such sexy people
hahahaha.
i would like to marry deryck.
would you like to marry deryck too?
hahahah.
actually, i wanted to marry him a looooong time ago,
but i forgot to.
and i saw his picture just now,
and since sher also wants to marry him,
i shall marry him and steal him anyway(:
hahahah.
okay, shit, too high babeh!
:D
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
im still stuck at 224 songszzzzzzzzzzzz
hahahaha. what kind of sad life is that.
stuuuuuuuuupid sonic stage.

mmhm,
i dont really feel like blogging anymore.
i shall state my birthday wish.
i wanna meet my prince charming,
the love of my life,
true love's kiss...
ahahhaaha. you get the point.
so if you think you are me lovely,
please, i'd like to marry you! :D
hahahah.
okay, sorry.
too high alr.
shall leave nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww
byeeeeeeee
btw, I WANT SONGZXSZSXZSSZS!
:D

alamak, i need to pee!

let me whisper one more time:
i love you.

2008-10-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

hahah.
hmmm. exams are over.
okay, a bit late to post this luh huh.
hahaha, but never mind, im still celebrating(:
anyways, i havent posted pictures for a long time, so i shall post them now.
haahha, all the super duper long overdue pictures(:

we the nerds!

(:

emily&i

vain pot's the girl's that further away

nicole, lucy, alyx, me

i was cute when i was young(:

rah

BEN&JERRYS!

pretty pretty

hahaha, emolee again

okay, fast forward to FOOD time!

cookieeeeeeeeeeee! rahrah and rencerence <3

stackerssssssssssssss

omg lah, i was looking for this since like, forever.
sadly, it costs 11.90 for lik 200g
@#!@$##!#1

all i want for my birthday..... is(nt) you! (:

COLORFUL!

hahaha, I HAVE AN IPOD NANOOOOOOO!
okay, i know you have i phone, i touch......
but im still happy with my pretty nanoooo baby!
teeheeee.
its lime greeeeeeen!
lovelaye!
i got it for my birthday (:
too much of a coincidence...

did you have, to spoil my lovely day, lovely?
happy-try-your-best-birthday to me.

2008-09-26T16:01:00.000-07:00

hahah,
okay fast post fast post!
mmmmhmm,
last few days were like, exams exams exams?
hahahhaha.
(which cedarian wouldnt know that?)
ANYWAY.
let me tell you,
im going to fail chinese, english, geog and MAYBE maths.
BUT
IM GOING TO PASS CHEM AND SS (hopefully)
hahaha,
(:
sleeeepover ON TUESDAY!
hahaha.
and sis and i are...
umm,
12/13 days till were FIFTEEEEEN!
hhahahaha.
finally, we're olddddddd people D:
ahaahaha.
OHOH i found a pretty playground near my house!
(:
with SWINGS(:
hahahahah
okayokay, id better go now..
its a freaking seven am on a freaking saturday morning
hasnt waking up at 6 for the past few days been enough already? ):
oh and mummy has an obsession with CNN news.
so i hear americany voices like 50% og my day?
hahahah, feel like im in america.
or at least thats how mummy feels
hahaha.
okay, right.
bye(:

all i want for chistmasssss
is youuuu.

promise you'll take care of yourself love,
so take care my love,
take care.

2008-08-23T21:05:00.000-07:00

hahah, hello.
this is gonna be a white post again.
you decide whether you want to know the truth, or not.
i like this song.
EDITED

im really sorry if any one read the post
i relly didnt mean for anyone to read what i was feeling.i was jut in a real badbad mood at the time and i didnt mean to hurt anyone.
really.
sorrry sorrrrrry
i love anyone who read what was not meant to be read alot okay.
:)

"Better In Time"

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Leona Lewis

i watched camp rock alr.
its stereotype teenage love story and show the world not so popular people actually can win in life.

right, get a grip. like those things are real.
so if unpopular people do win some times,
why are all the actresses/actors so pretty?
cant they be more like hairspray.
that one sees more real.
is the character was that is.

someone please bring me THE DARK KNIGHT disc,
pleeeeeease? (:

2008-08-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

mmhmm,
it seems sad.
my tagboard has died.
hahaha, ahwell.
it doesnt matter. i feel like privatizing the blog though.
i just cant seem to really say what i really want to say.
(:
maybe ill be like sherilyn and keep this blog for "my own reading pleasure"
hahah, that woman makes me laugh.
and come on lorr,
im NOT THAT lame. hahaha, dont reserve THAT look for me man.
hahah, i hope she sees that (:
anywayyyyy.
endyears are coming REEEEEEAL soon.
sept 22.
ANDDDDDDDDDDD
ITS GONNA END BEFORE 8TH OCTOBER!
YAY! hahahaa
see my happyness?
(:
anyway,
i think MUCH has happened since, well.
THEN
i found out something.
it really sucks, when you love someone alot, and then realize that maybe, your love has been wasted.
im really tired of it all.
i think, out of all the pet peeves in this world,
the one i hate most is when people play with my feelings.
i HATE being treated like a yoyo.
one day, we're the best of friends, and the next,
you look like you hate me to the core.
yeah i know, im sensitive.
but hey, you had so LONG to figure that out, didnt you?
i dislike it, like to the max when you think im fine with whatever your mood is.
okay, actually, im not really directing this at any specific person.
maybe more of a group.
sigh.
maybe i should just concentrate on end years and not think so much.
my brain can only take SO much.
too much more and it'll just waste away.
ahahah,
whatever lah.
who cares what i think anyway?
the above's invisible.
go read it if you're just bored or something.
im not forcing anyone to read my ramblings.
i think brandon's being lead astray.
and to that person who was once his good friend,
whom once felt that brandon was exactly like himself when he was young,
im really really hoping you see this.
that maybe, you'll help my little brother.
i really dont want him to become the ahbeng and ass hole that his friends are.
will you help me? (: